Conditioned Unrest

Nothing that happens in life creates inner unrest unless your own mind allows it. This is the insanity of a Conditioned Mind, its self destructive solutions are all from within and they take away your peace…

The bottom line for me is I’ve found a practical way to minimize the unrest in my life that caused my own destructiveness, which by the way was my own mind creating the unrest telling me it was needed to cope with life; a life that was controlled by a conditioned destructive mind set. My own mind created all the unrest that went on by choosing actions I thought I wanted to do, but my choices always caused unrest; I developed a mind that told me to do things that were destructive to my own well being. From relationships, to drugs, alcohol, gambling, and a slew of other things, nothing was ever chosen that was beneficial to my well being, it always seemed to cause more harm than good. How this mind set developed I’m not sure, but I do know this, it can be described as pure insanity.

Thirteen years ago although it wasn’t a white light experience, an inner urging occurred that was tired of all the unrest and destructive behavior. I wasn’t sure what was going to happen, but I did know I needed to find a way to bring peace into my life. I don’t label what happened, there isn’t a benefit in calling it something, a label needn’t be applied to what happened. All that was needed to know then and all that’s needed to know now is my behavior which was once totally self destructive is no longer this way. This is why labels and what others do isn’t a concern of mine, because I know for years my own mind allowed these things to create unrest within myself and because of the shift that occurred there’s an awareness unrest doesn’t have to be created anymore.

Regardless of what it’s called or what attached label is put on it, the bottom line is this, when I have an issue with something it’s my own self destructive mind that creates unrest take me from my peace. And now because there’s awareness of this, if I don’t allow my mind to do this, unrest isn’t created and I have found without it I’m at peace, so again the bottom line is not to create unrest. All I ever wanted in my life was peace, but I didn’t know it was my own mind that was the cause of all the unrest…