Awakened Heart

There’s strength in unity. Although there’s nothing wrong with individuality, spreading love is so much more powerful when it‘s linked in unity for the simple purpose of sharing love…

If you think you can have an individual agenda to change the world you will be gravely disappointed. Not in your effort, but in the result of the world not changing. A large part of the problems of the world are individual agendas. There’s way to much energy wasted on these individual agendas. If the world is to change it has to be done in unity. We all need to have a heart of love and give the love that is in our heart to others. This love is from the Universe and it’s the awakened heart that realizes this. An awakened heart is not limited to certain religious belief or mind made concepts, it’s open to anyone who has purity of heart; the only way for it to be pure is to remove its pollutants. An example of this would be polluted water: Nothing has to be added to polluted water to return it to its natural state of purity, all that needs to be done is to remove the pollutants.

To me the only thing that matters in life is to understand the loving awakened heart and to learn to remove all the pollutants so love is emitted to all beings; this is the Universe’s doing not ours. What I try and teach is a message of love, but it isn’t my love, its the love of the Universe. Of myself I can do nothing but self seek. It’s through the surrendering of the heart that the Universe will find the best possible way to use you. What this results in is up to the Universe not some individual agenda. So it’s in our unity that there is strength and it is our self serving agenda that keeps the awakened heart from being utilized to the fullest…

Base Energy Of Love

There’s always a base from where life is lived from and this is what determines if the energy emitted out to the world is truly from love or from the way one thinks the world should be…

For years the base of my life was from self serving energy, this didn’t leave much room for anyone else to be served so to say the least my life was always filled with drama and chaos. This is what a life based in self serving energy produces, it has to because that’s the nature of self serving energy. No one is truly at fault for this base, it’s basically in place because it’s the way of the world. There are so many lives based in this self serving energy and it’s the cause of every conflict that has ever occurred since the beginning of time.

Ever so slowly a base of love is being established and it’s the one’s with this base that are making the world different. The only way things will become different in the world is when one base at a time is of love. A life based in love is of quietness, it’s not a made up base where one has to constantly defend that their base is the way. True love needs no defending because it’s in unity with all of life regardless of what someone else thinks. If for some reason you’re in conflict with someone your base is not of love, it can’t be because that’s not how love rolls; it never ever has conflict because it’s energy doesn’t allow it.

Conflict with others is a good gauge to see if your life’s base is truly of love or self serving energy. If there’s conflict regardless of what the other person’s base is, your base is not of love. You may tell yourself it is, but it can’t be if there’s conflict. A conflict arises when someone isn’t in line with the way you think things should be; like it’s really known how things should be. Mind your own business, take care of your base and make sure you allow everything and everyone to be as they are because that’s when the base of your life will be of love and the world will be different because of it…

One in the Same

Love is all encompassing because it’s the essence of existence. I don’t exist because of me, I am because the Universe created me, this makes the creator and all creation one in the same…

A question to ask yourself is how do you treat the most important person in your life, which is yourself? I say this in this context because you cannot give to others what you don’t have yourself, so if you don’t truly love yourself you cannot give love. To truly live, you will need adherence to two spiritual laws; Love God (of your understanding) with all your heart and love your neighbor as you love yourself. These are the two laws that are necessary if the true meaning of living is to be understood; you cannot truly live if you don’t love. These two laws work together, one can’t be adhered to without the other.

To love God of your understanding is to understand only the beloved is real and we exist as a product of the Universe. We don’t exist because of the thought realm of self; there is no true love in this realm. We are created by the Universe to serve the Universe and everything in existence is part of the Universe, so our love is for our creator just for being our creator and our creation had nothing to do with anything on our part. When this is understood you will be able to give yourself the gift you deserve, the gift that is your birth right and that is the true love of self, a self in the form of Universal Love.

It’s all one, the Universe, God, yourself, humanity so you cannot love your neighbor without loving yourself and you cannot love yourself without loving the creator. Creation is the essence of life, it’s where all form begins. To me this is why the most important gift that you can give is to truly love yourself so you can in turn love all of life. Love is what turned my life around because by learning to love myself it opened my heart to see that the beloved is real and in turn since the beloved is my creator when I love my creator I love me because I am one in the same. When I truly love me the only thing I can do is love you, not because I want to, but because I have to, how can I not because it’s what’s there as we are all one in the same…

Beneficial Responses

Having a mind that’s consistently settled allows for a steadiness so when it comes time to respond to circumstances the responses are derived from a place that’s beneficial to all involved…

Consistency in cultivating a settled mind is very important so the unconscious self serving mind ever so slowly loses its grip. Unless your transformation is sudden, steady will be the course for most people. Rome wasn’t built in a day fits here because it’ll take much time to undo the conditioning that took years to develop. For me although there has been much different responses to life circumstances than before, it has been the consistency of a settled mind that has made the difference in my life.

Where the consistency has really showed up is in how the base of most of my responses are now beneficial. I’m far from perfect in the respect that at times my responses are still derived from the self serving mind, but they accepted as perfect in the respect that life is the provider of change so anything that changes is not a doing. The responses usually last a few seconds, but depending on the awareness of them their energy patterns can make them last longer, sometimes a lot longer. So it’s important to be aware of the settled mind which is in place a lot more for me today than the mind that’s noisy; this allows for the sledge hammer that I used on myself to be left in the tool box.

At one time a noisy mind was normal for me, but this was only because of ignorance. There’s less ignorance today at least when it comes to understanding where the noise is derived from so fortunately the limits the noise. It matters little what the responses to circumstance are because they will be what is within an individual, they have to be. A person can’t be different than what they are, but awareness and consistency can be developed to allow the mind to settle so when its time to respond, the response will be beneficial to all beings. Or not and the conditioning will remain the constant that circumstances are responded with. Either way the responses are from what’s there, but a settled mind makes the responses to circumstances much more beneficial…

Delusional Mind

Understanding the nature of a delusional mind is one of the attributes of waking up, but it’s not the delusional world that you wake up to, it’s the delusional mind that runs your life…

What is a delusional mind that runs your life? Delusions manifest as you attach to your thoughts. The first thought about something is inconsequential, it’s the attachment to the second thought that forms the delusional mind. To understand the delusional mind there must be awareness of your attachments, desires, confusions, and the way your mind works; without this the puppet on string pattern prevails. Certain practices turn you inward to see this, if what you’re doing doesn’t turn you inward, you will remain a slave to your delusional state of mind. This is why nothing from the outside truly changes a person because the outside is part of the delusion. A broken mind can’t fix itself and as long as it’s reaching for something on the outside, it remains trying to fix itself and thus it remains broken. Until this truth is seen, things will remain as they are because nothing is being done to change it.

You can only know what is known if there’s awareness of it. What this means is you have to develop mindfulness of what you’re doing as you’re doing it so there’s awareness of what’s being done. If you know what you’re doing as you’re doing it, it leaves little room for a delusional mind to control. Mindfulness is the single most important discipline to develop as it anchors you in the moment of what’s being done right now. Delusions only occur when you live in the story that there’s a past or future. These mind made constructs keep the delusional mind alive. The present moment can be seen without making it a story (even though it passes as quickly as it arises) but the past and future can never truly be seen without a story; without the discipline to be present, the world is seen through a delusional state of mind…

Heart Gratitude

Happy Thanksgiving, not only for today, but for each and everyday because life itself is your greatest gift because one day it will not be so…

Being grateful for life occurs naturally when there’s an understanding of how to live from a heart of love; although love is natural it’s not automatic so cultivating love results in gratitude…

Gratitude naturally arises from a loving heart, but it’s not automatic. It isn’t produced by attaching to anything from the materiel realm. If gratitude was from the material realm it would coincide with possessions and that would make a person of wealth more grateful than one who didn’t have much. The true measure of wealth has nothing to do with possessions, true wealth arises from a loving heart, that’s what measures wealth. You can only be grateful when you are content with life as it is, not with the way you wish it was or how you want or expect it to be.

Wanting is never from our true self, it’s from the small self that thinks what’s wanted is needed to be complete. Whenever you want, it means you think life needs to be in some other way; this creates suffering. Gratitude doesn’t mean everything will be as it’s wanted, life must be accepted as it is if you are to be at peace and have a grateful heart; investigate this for yourself. Gratitude will not shield you from life problems, it will allow you to not create them. Be grateful for your life as it is and you will find your loving heart, and when life is lived from a loving heart there will be harmony with yourself and with all beings. When this occurs you can’t help but to have an attitude that’s full of gratitude for life as it is, not because of what you possess, but because of the natural love that arises from your own heart…

Conditioned Lies

For many lies have been in place for years. You should never take the word of another without investigating it yourself, but many remain stuck in their own lies because of not investigating their conditioning…

All kinds of stories are used to justify the conditioned lies; this is done because of being stuck in your conditioning. Think about this, if you had a cure for some devastating illness, if the so called experts didn’t discover the cure themselves it’s very unlikely they will listen to you; but you would have to say something about it regardless. There’s no way you would be able to contain this with knowing the suffering that’s being caused. This is how I look at what has been revealed to me about the Conditioned Mind, although many of the so called experts don’t agree with what I write, it still needs to be said. It’s written that upon his enlightenment the Buddha asked himself who’s going to believe this; it doesn’t matter who believes it, what matters is that it’s passed on. Thousands of years later the Buddha’s message is still being taught, I’m sure there were many doubters back then and there still are, but it’s only because of their own lies.

Those who have a message outside of society’s conditioned box are frowned upon and this is done without any investigation; this is the format in which lies excel. It’s much easier to look at another than to look at yourself. This is why saying yes to what is has so much value, because it frees you from getting caught up in someone else’s conditioned lies. I’m not saying don’t study and learn from others, but if it’s taken as truth because a person wrote a book or ten books all you’re doing is mimicking what’s in that book.

Sitting allows you to go inward so your lies are revealed. This requires nothing, no reading or writing, reciting prayers, attending meetings, helping others or anything else for that matter, it allows for the mud in the lake (the mind) to settle. The mud will never settle and the water will remain cloudy until there’s stillness that allows the water to stop moving. This is where most lies arise from; thinking the mud will settle although the lake is constantly being stirred up. The Conditioned Mind creates lies and these lies create suffering which blocks truth from being seen and keeps you on the merry-go-round of the Conditioned Mind. Until this is seen the mud in the lake will never settle and you will never be able to get off the merry-go-round as you remain a slave to the conditioning and lies. But take heed because if it’s learned to say yes to what is, the chains that hold you captive to your own lies will be broken…

Reflected Energy

What occurs when you awaken is there’s a reflection of energy from the mind to the heart. This allows the veil of ignorance to be removed so the truth that has always been there is revealed…

People think there’s a change when one awakens and truth is revealed, but the true essence of what’s happening is there’s a reflection of energy to see what has always been there. It’s not really a change that occurs, it’s a reflection of energy from delusional thinking to an understanding of the true nature of life; starting with your own mind. You cannot reflect if you don’t know yourself and you cannot know yourself if you don’t understand the Conditioned Mind. The reason why it’s so difficult to look inward (reflect) is because the mind never settles down. It tells you everything is okay, that you do enough to get by in life; as long as this is so you will not reflect because you’re Conditioned Mind tells you there’s no need to..

Truly reflecting and looking at yourself is not pleasurable, especially when it’s first started, that’s why many are hesitant to do it. It’s much easier and pleasurable to have an out there view and do what’s familiar, but there are only benefits when honest self reflection is done; a step into the unfamiliar will need to be taken so you can get to know yourself.

The mind defaults naturally to what’s familiar because of a conditioned out there view, but honest self reflection is what allows truth to be revealed; this is the energy of reflection where truth becomes familiar. When truth is revealed what happens is the veil of ignorance is removed and where you were once blind you now see, but it’s not a change it’s a reflection of energy that allows the truth that has always been there to be revealed and become the familiar…

The Present Arising

Your entire life hinges on a single attached thought; the present arising is from here. Learning to skillfully see this so the attachment is at a minimum determines how the present unfolds…

The thoughts attached to make up your belief system. This is done because it’s thought the beliefs are a good thing, if this wasn’t so the thoughts wouldn’t be attached to. If these attached beliefs aren’t seen as erroneous they’ll remain in place. The more you think your created belief system is the right one, the harder it is to see beyond it. Seeing the present arise through thought is delusional because there’s no solid foundation to a thought and everyone has different ones; that’s why everyone sees things differently.

There’s one truth and until this is seen the present arising will remain delusional. To get to a point where it’s not delusional, you have to get beyond the attached thoughts that hold your belief system (conditioning) in place, regardless of what it is. The present arises as one single thought, at that point a person’s conditioning determines what happens next and how the present arising plays out. Attaching to it or not is the difference in how the present arises and if there’s going to be unity or separation with it. The truth is you’re never separated from life, but it feels this way when there’s attachment to a thought that makes you think you are. Your entire life hinges on a single attached thought; the present arising is from here. Learning to skillfully see this so the attachment is at a minimum determines how the present arising plays out…

Shedding Your Conditioning

Although your conditioning may be firmly in place and it may be true that you don’t know what you don’t know, but if this isn’t investigated what you don’t know will be the only thing you know…

When a snake sheds its skin it’s because the snake is growing. If the conditioned skin doesn’t fall away, growth will not occur. It’s the same with us, just substitute the skin of the snake with our ideas. Life is a natural process of learning and growing, but the base of growth is dependent on the new that’s replacing the conditioning. For years I drove an old car in constant need of repair just to keep it up and running. This is how many live their life, constantly making adjustments and repairs just to keep it running; not many truly live. It wasn’t until I purchased a new car that it was realized just how broken down the old one was. This goes with the saying “You don’t know what you don’t know” this is also what happened to me when I finally let go of the conditioned ideas I had in place, I started realizing just how out of sorts my thinking was, I began the process of shedding my conditioning per se.

Although learning is a natural process of life, learning to grow spiritually is not automatic. It does seem to take some effort even if it’s only the willingness to head in a different direction. There are many intellects in the world who don’t have a clue as to what it means to live in the space of spiritual growth; they never seem to shed their conditioning. The mind loves the familiar and will always try to convince you it’s better to stay in that space instead of going in the space of the unknown. So it may be true that you don’t know what you don’t know, but if this isn’t investigated what you don’t know will be the only thing you know. And because nothing new is being allowed in, your conditioning will remain in place and new growth will not be allowed to occur…

 

Heart of Stillness

A Conditioned Mind can only make pre-determined decisions. Only through the heart of stillness can decisions truly be made as a true decision can only come from the stillness of the heart…

The heart of stillness can also be called the heart of love, when this is the way life is viewed. What is seen through the heart is so different than what an unconscious mind sees; by unconscious I mean blindly conforming to what the conditioned world offers. As life is experienced more and more through the heart of stillness, the observations are centered more in love and there are less decisions made based on your conditioning. This leads to an unconventional way of living life because you’re not affected by the decisions based in the world; viewing life in this way is so different than what people have become accustomed to.

With a heart of stillness no individual decides what happens to you; the Universe decides. Whatever happens is a result of fully cooperating with Universal Love as love is the most powerful force in the Universe. With a stillness heart as your view, no one can decide your fate. A stillness heart is not of this world, but the decisions made by most people are. No one and I truly mean no one controls another person, how can they as most people don’t even control themselves. They think they do, but this is the great delusion.

Most decisions people make are based on how the Conditioned Mind controls them. You may think you’re making decisions, but you’re only doing what you’ve been conditioned to do. This is the way you have to be, there really isn’t a choice; this is all part of the conditioning. Look at the nonsense that goes on between your ears. It’s truly mind boggling how the mind is controlling ever decision made as if you were a puppet on a string. If you don’t think this is so try and sit still for a half hour in silence. If you can’t do it, don’t be discouraged not many can. If you can’t control your own mind when you are consciously trying to do it, what makes you think you’re in control when you’re not trying. It’s so hard to do because the unconscious mind blindly conforms to the conditioning of the world instead of living life through a heart of stillness…

Blind Ignorance

As long as there’s ignorance in place, this will be the operating energy of your life. This ignorant operating energy arises as blindness and it doesn’t allow you to see what’s truly going on…

Often how things appear isn’t what’s actually going on. If you truly want to see what’s going on, getting beyond your blindness is what will have to happen. If two people are looking at same thing there are usually two different opinions of what is seen, and than there’s the truth beyond the formed opinion. It’s the old saying, there’s three sides to every story, my side, your side and the truth. To stop being blind you only need to stop labeling everything. Stopping the labeling process allows the mind to slow to a point when space opens up. It’s imperative for this to happen if the blind conditioning that’s been formed over the years is to lessen its grip.

The blind conditioning is so misunderstood and how this is known is because of the behavior that’s in place. I look to my own reactions to know this and in the process I can see it in others. This isn’t a judgement, it’s factual. Know your own mind and you will know the mind of others. This is because we are all of the same energy; who among us is from somewhere else. Creation is creation anyway it’s sliced. When the blind ignorance is seen for what it is, its energy begins to transform in a direction that allows liberation. As long as there is blindness of this, the energy of ignorance remains as the operating energy of your life. This operating energy arises as conditioning and takes on many forms, but the bottom line is it’s the blind ignorance in place and it doesn’t allow you to see what’s truly going on…

False Idol Attachment

There are many false idols out there that are used as a God which keeps you in bondage, and although it may appear that the false idol creates the bondage, the bondage is to “I” that attaches to the idol…

There are many traps that create bondage in the world, to me the description of false idols (there’s no difference if it’s an idol or simply attaching to a self) is right on. Here’s where this gets tricky because anything that is made into a story and is attached to is a false idol because it becomes a prison to the one who is attached to the story. God is made into an idol by most people and becomes a prison although most don’t see this. Just look at the different religions and how all the followers of a particular one think their idol or God is the right one. Many of these religions have beautiful teachings, but in the way they’re attached to actually takes away from them. This isn’t to say there isn’t value in them, but there’s never value in attaching to something because it enforces an I am right and you are wrong idol.

I found this false idol attachment happening to me yesterday, someone didn’t agree with my article (idol) so right away I felt I had to defend it. I always have to look at myself so I can identify what form my false idol is taking on. I’m not saying there is or isn’t a God, this is just to show how attachment to anything becomes bondage and blocks the heart from remaining open to allow everything its freedom. False idols take over when they get control of “I” as “I” becomes your idol. I am right is an idol, as is anything that’s reached for. The world presents many false idols disguised as attachment, until this is identified, the idol of “I” will remain and so will your suffering…

Changing Conditions

Everyone has the choice whether to change or stay the same, but it’s only those who have the awareness it’s the conditions that need to be changed who truly have this choice…

The other day I took a shower and when I got out the mirror was foggy, I took out the blow dryer and cleared up the mirror. What also became clear was my awareness of how everything that happens in life is a result of conditions being a certain way and the only way it will change is when the conditioning changes. This is a fact, it doesn’t take a belief for this to occur; get a pot of water to 212 degrees and it will boil. All things in life have certain operating principles and when conditions are in line with those principles the natural course of action takes place. It’s what happens with every living thing that begins life, whether humans, animals, plants, clouds, stars and so on, nothing truly happens independently on its own, it’s all caused by something else.

Behavior is the same way, no one acts a certain way just because, there’s always the root cause behind every action and unless this root is exposed, nothing changes; it’s not that it won’t change, it can’t. This is why there’s suffering in the world, nothing inherently makes you suffer, your own mind does this only because of the way it’s conditioned. When something happens people see it differently so it affects them differently, but there are some things that are the same no matter what. If there’s isn’t oxygen, you will die, if the heart stops, same result, this happens as a result of conditions. So everyone has the choice whether to change or stay the same, but only those who have the awareness it’s the conditions that need changing will have this choice…

Thoughts Arising

If you think it so it will be. This is because the thought arises from the same energy that the action will be and this energy if based in unconsciousness makes the thought and action one in the same…

There’s a saying that goes like this “If you think it so it is” This isn’t an issue when the first thought comes in because there’s not much you can do about that, but it does become an issue when the thought is given energy for it to come alive; this is even if the thought is never acted on. This occurs because of unconsciousness and why it’s an issue is because it blocks you from your own innate love. Here’s an example: It’s not wrong for a married man to look at a woman or to find her attractive. Same with a married woman, it’s not wrong to see of a man as handsome, but if a married man or woman goes farther and starts fantasizing about kissing or having sex with someone other than his or her spouse, he or she has taken the thought to a level where it now becomes bondage and blocks out the love from your own heart; this is when issues arise.

This issue doesn’t occur when the thought, emotion, or feeling arises, but if those thoughts aren’t resisted issues occur because we give in to the emotion, thought, or feeling by dwelling on it; this is only a thought, not an action. If the action of the thought is acted on, the bondage goes to an entirely different level with much more dire consequences. It all starts with a single thought, but if the thought isn’t given energy, an action cannot occur. This is true with any thought, whether it’s anger, lust, greed, and so on, if there isn’t bondage to the unconsciousness, there wouldn’t be further attachment to the incoming thought and if you don’t think it, it cannot be so…

Concept of Self Feelings

Feelings can’t rule you if the concept of self isn’t created. This concept of self is the operating system behind your feelings. When this self isn’t attaching to the outside circumstances of life, there is peace…

Feelings are something that most people don’t give much thought to. The self appointed experts with their degrees will say they’re needed and people go along with this without investigating if it’s true. I say the hell with the experts and their degrees because if I followed the nonsense that is spewed from the arrogance of their degrees, I would be dead. For me the turning point in learning about feelings was in being aware of how they all arise from the core of “I”. What was revealed to me is that there’s a created self that gets tied into feelings in many ways. The concept of this sense of self is the operating system behind all feelings. These feelings are tied into how you see yourself, for instance the feeling of guilt arises when you do something you were taught was bad or wrong. Feeling anger arises when this self is hurt in some way. Fear feelings arise when your self is threatened. Feeling sad arises when there’s disappointment. All these feelings arise because of very different circumstances, but this is as far as most people get when it comes to understanding feelings.

The way I investigated feelings is not in how they were different, but what they all had in common, this was where my focus centered. What this led me to see was there’s one common source of every feeling and that source is the created self; feelings can’t rule you if a self isn’t created. Investigate this for yourself, don’t listen to anyone and their view, develop your own. I said earlier that my feelings would have killed me because I had a tendency when reacting to things to use things that were self destructive. It’s not this way today because I’ve learned somewhat (nobody’s perfect) not to attach to a self that gives my feelings life. When there’s not this self reacting to the outside circumstances of life, there’s much more balance to remain at peace and not do something just because a feeling arises…

Truth Revealed

Truth isn’t created, it’s not something that can be held onto, it’s only known when it’s realized there’s nothing to know and it’s in the not knowing that truth is known…

To me it’s clear what truth is and here’s why: Thirteen years ago when I needed a different way to live my life, at the core of this looking was the urge for peace. I didn’t know much about anything, but I did know I needed a different way to view life. I understood one thing, that my own mind was the cause as to why I wasn’t at peace so I set out to find out why this was and if it was possible to be at peace. As this process of self inquiry proceeded, my view was slowly becoming different and as this happened my life become less and less about me. It didn’t become about anyone else, it just wasn’t all about fulfilling my wants and desires anymore; when this happens qualities associated with peace naturally arise. This doesn’t mean everything goes the way that it’s wanted, but it’s does mean it doesn’t matter how it goes because if it’s not all about me there’s no story of wanting and needing things a certain way and without a story there is peace.

Truth is difficult to describe in words because it’s defined differently by everyone, I have found truth in the space of what is; not what is itself, but the space of what is. What is has many labels that depend on what’s occurring at the time. It can horrible, beautiful, or neutral, the label doesn’t change what’s actually occurring. Being in the space of what is occurring changes it and that’s because without a label there’s only space. In this space there’s no story and without a story truth is revealed. It’s not a created truth, it’s the truth of just being with what’s here right now and not needing to add a label or story to it. In this space is where truth is revealed, but it has nothing to do with you or anyone else and this is when you’ll clearly see the truth in the space of what is…

Beyond Objects

If you can develop some awareness of inner stillness, the surface perspective will have less control as your mind agitations subside, and without these agitations you’ll never have a need to reach for anything…

If you’re always seeing life from the surface perspective of objects the eyes see, those objects will be judged accordingly and what’s going on in the beneath the surface to form those judgments will not be noticed. Although with an surface minded perspective life still goes on, it’s just very limited almost to the point of being purely superficial; I know this from experience. The superficial existence was self created and was controlled by the surface perspective; although this wasn’t understood at the time. An object perspective life is one where there is constant reaching and the reaching is caused by the surface created mind agitations which aren’t seen. This is why someone will reach for anything without giving it much thought regardless if it’s beneficial or not. In that moment the Conditioned Mind deems it beneficial, but this is a big fat lie.

The beneath the surface perspective will only be noticed when the mind stops its incessant busyness. You will have to be able to just be for the busyness to subside; you will not see the essence of the forest from the trees if the mind is busy focusing on the trees. This surface perspective is strictly mind based, hence the reason it’s not conducive to your well being is it’s unstable, as there are so many objects to see, one right after another. This is why the big fat lie is in the forefront of most lives and stillness takes a back seat. If you can develop some awareness of inner stillness, less and less the surface perspective will be in control because the mind agitations will subside. It will be at this point that the need to reach for something will be no more and it will probably be the first time in your life that this has happened…

A Definitive View

Our answers are always within, you just need to make sure the tools you’re using are ones pointing you to a definitive view that’s the most beneficial possible…

Looking back I can see there was a definitive view of how I wanted my life to be when the study of my mind began. There weren’t any lofty goals to achieve or some great state of mind to make my life about anything in particular, all I wanted was to find the peace that eluded me for most of my life. This is still my view today, but just because you may say you’re on a so called spiritual path, it doesn’t mean what you’re doing is truly beneficial. I had a view for years that I was told was right and it turned out not to be so beneficial for me; these things actually keep me in bondage. I won’t go into details, but the view today is beneficial and how I know this is because I’m at peace and there’s no real desire for anything else. I have passion in my heart for things, but not an emptiness because I need this moment to be different. By not looking for anything that’s how you will know if your view is healthy for you.

You may want to be the most spiritual person in your circle, you may be reading all the books, quoting all the right people, and putting all your energy into your practice, but the question is can you stop it all and still be at peace. If not your view is only being used as a distraction. I was distracted for forty nine years, so I know what I’m talking about. a view of another book, a program, therapy, another pill, working out, meditation, and whatnot, but when the tasks is complete and you are living your daily life, if you’re not at peace, what your view isn’t working. All things are pointers, but where the misdirection is in thinking the pointers are the answers. The answers are always within, you just need to make sure the tools you’re using are pointing to a definitive view that’s truly beneficial…

Blindness Uncovered

A quiet mind gains insight by allowing one’s blindness to be uncovered. This inner space of quietness is the place where all truth awaits to be uncovered, but only when quietness is the focus…

A true understanding of life cannot be revealed by doing. There are many highly intelligent people who never understand life, this doesn’t mean there’s anything wrong with intelligence, but you become what is focused on. For me, insights came from the revelation that the cause of why I struggled so much with life was because of a wrong view (selfish). So now the focus isn’t so much on a made up right view, but more so on not being stuck in the view that caused my struggles. This is what a quiet mind affords a person, it has nothing to do with intelligence. Choose any view that’s wanted, but understand the view in place is what you focus on and it’s what will manifest as life; blindness is your struggle.

Focused quietness is where insights are revealed, but only when your blindness is uncovered; this is how insight is revealed so life ceases to be a struggle. Use whatever gateway that works to get quiet and focus on that. The mind will settle more and more into a state of quietness that allows insights to be revealed. Becoming truly insightful not made up insightful isn’t for a select few, it’s available to anyone. It takes an understanding that quietness has nothing to do with intellect, that it’s something which occurs as a result of your focus on an inner space within.

One can only become quiet when that’s the focus, not to the point where it’s a doing, but to the point where it’s what’s there because that’s the focus. The more the mind settles the quieter it gets and the quieter it gets the more the mind settles. The insight that leads to a greater understanding of life can only be uncovered in quietness so if your focus is on an intellectual understanding, don’t be surprised by the lack of your insight. To me, one only gains insight by allowing their blindness to be uncovered, it has nothing to do with intelligence. It’s a revealing of the blindness that blocks you from love which will only occur when the mind is focused on quietness…

Made Up Problems

The Conditioned Mind loves to make up problems and until this is seen it will continue to do so even though everything in life is temporary, especially the Conditioned Mind problems that are made up…

Problems are made up by a Conditioned Mind that doesn’t accept what’s occurring in the present moment. It wants the present moment different and it actually makes you think if it was different all would be well; this is the lie of the Conditioned Mind. All is well right now, but because of the Conditioned Mind it’s not seen so a problem is made up just so there’s something to do. I always had a tendency to make everything that occurs a problem and although I don’t attach to this as I once did, many times the made up problem view is my first reaction.

There other day I was washing clothes and I put them in the dryer. When they were almost finished drying, I opened the dryer to pull out a shirt, there were red spots on it and also on some of the other clothes. I pulled them all out and found a pen in the dryer. There was also red ink all over the dryer. My first response was this usual this is a problem reaction, the clothes are ruined. I took a step back and took a deep breath. I grabbed a shirt and cleaned a spot, the ink came out. I then cleaned the inside of dryer. I rewashed all the clothes and an two hours later it was as if nothing had happened. I don’t concern myself too much with my reactions anymore, the attachment to what occurs is what I watch now. The clothes can be substituted with anything. The Conditioned Mind loves to make up problems, and until this is seen it will continue to do so even though nothing is truly a problem because everything passes; that is if the mind sees just how conditioned it is…

A Higher Frequency

A higher frequency is always there waiting to be aligned with it. When it’s understood this frequency is the stillness beneath all your stories, you can stop and align with a higher frequency and in essence with life itself…

We’re not always aligned with the higher frequency that the Universe provides for us and this our misfortune, it’s not that we can’t always be aligned with it, but we have to do the things that will allow it to be aligned with. Our alignment is in relation to how much we hold onto the self who tries to control life. This control is thought based and although certain aspects of life need to be controlled, it’s the parts that are beyond our control which we insist on controlling; this blocks out awareness to a higher frequency.

There’s a part of us that’s the self who is controlled by the senses. This is the human aspect (thought based) of who we are, but there’s a self that is beyond the senses, that is beyond anything physical, beyond any thought process, this is the self of no mind. This self can’t be conceptualized. it’s the frequency beyond form; this is energy in it’s purest state. It’s only our thought process that needs to make things solid so it can have something to grasp and make sense of, this is what thoughts are. Beyond thought is pure Universal Energy, it’s who we are before our existence in this form begins and when conditions no longer allow this form to exist and it ends.

Thoughts are energy, but this energy isn’t pure because it has attachment added to it, it’s based in the senses. To go beyond these sense thoughts, you must go beyond their attachment. This will be when you’re in alignment with a higher frequency. It can be called many things, but words are not needed to understand this. Actually any word will hamper the availability to this higher frequency because words themselves are a form of thought. When you learn to just be and not attach to anything to make up the story of who you are (a thought) that’s when you’ll understand who you truly are; thoughtless, formless, pure energy, this is the state of no mind that leads to a higher frequency…

Proving a Path

Being a light to provide direction so others may find their path is important, but if the light is only lit to shine on a specific path, it loses its illuminating effect…

There’s no such thing as one path to wake up from the sleep of unconsciousness and it’s just about impossible to see exactly what another person experiences because no one travels the same exact path in the waking up process. I find it quite amusing the way some people project their waking up process as being the only path. This is not to say this isn’t the path for that person, but that’s their experience and it’s very unlikely that two people let alone many, travel the same path to waking up. I just try to direct people to look inward so the can come to their own conclusion to finding what will provide them their peace. I seriously doubt that anyone went through exactly what I did to get to the place I’m in now, so why would I expect anyone to see things as I do.

One site in particular always talks about there not being no self very matter of factually as if this is the only path to experience peace. Many others use religion as the path to peace. I’ve found there are as many paths to peace as there people seeking and none of them are wrong. I don’t know and don’t really care what path one uses, it’s not my place to judge; far to many say one thing and do the opposite. Although I understand the conditioning in place is in control, I really find it funny when someone goes against what someone says because “they put it out there so it’s fair game.” To me the bottom line is to show love and respect to everyone even if their path is not something I’ve experienced. The only reason someone shares something is because it’s what’s in place, and its not up to me to judge it because it’s out there. It’s up to me to watch my own mind and make sure it’s not conditioned as this will only dim the light to the path that may be beneficial for others…

Your Own Light

It’s the selfish view of satisfying “I” that keeps you from the vision of seeing your own light. This vision of light only occurs when your vision comes from looking inward…

Although no one is more special than another in this existence, there are some who do see things from their own light; what makes this happen is looking inward. I wouldn’t label some as chosen, but I would say some are more inclined to not attach to a selfish view which allows for a clear vision of your own light. the other view seen is a mind based me, me, me, view. I’ve experienced both views which are vastly different, one is in the direction (outward) where there is much self created suffering. The other is a inward view of your own light. The differences in the two views is one creates suffering and is done unconsciously in ignorance and the other is lived in the awareness of this ignorance. Today the selfish distractions don’t control me as much as they once did; there is still conditioning, but my inward light view is mostly in control.

The vision of your own light that occurs is a by product of awareness and as the selfish view is let go of, it opens up space to allow wisdom full insights to occur. This opening is directly linked to the letting go of “I”. It’s the “I” that attaches and it’s the cause of all suffering. Ever so slowing when one begins to look inward the distractions of “I” give away to light. To me this is what was revealed to the great mystic’s that people considered special, but all they did was see their own light. Looking inward is available to everyone, but you will have to overcome the selfish view that keeps you distracted from the vision of your own light which will only be seen when you look inward…

Heart of Existence

IIf you’re to ever get to the heart of who you truly are, it’s going to take some studying of the Conditioned Mind along with the willingness to sit so the process of peeling away your conditioning begins…

Nothing will ever change as long as people continue to blame others and look outside themselves for their answers. If you can’t get beyond all the conditioning that’s in place, getting to the heart of existence which requires nothing but being in its space will be just about impossible; this is only because the Conditioned Mind doesn’t allow it. Using the well known onion analogy: every onion has a center, but unless the onion is peeled it’s center will never be exposed. It will always be there as it’s a natural part of every onion, but without actually peeling the onion the center will remain hidden. The natural process of an onion is to cover its center, this is also the way human nature has evolved and because of this very few people ever get to their heart.

Underneath all the conditioning is the heart of existence, there’s no blame and there’s no looking for answers but within the heart of existence. When the conditioning is peeled away one layer at a time, the heart gets more exposed and your true nature takes hold. If there isn’t awareness of this, nothing will ever change because it can’t. It’s like a force field is around the heart and without awareness it seems as though it’s impenetrable. Take heed though because it’s not impenetrable, it’s just going to take some studying of the Conditioned Mind and the willingness to begin the process of peeling away the so called onion so you can get to the heart of who you truly are…

Human Desiring

Life is not made to be perfect where it has to be the way you think it should be. Whatever arises has to be accepted exactly as it is without the imperfect desire of wanting things different…

Being human means you will have desires and unless this is accepted exactly as it is without needing things to be a certain way, life will seem to always have some kind of struggle associated with it. One of the common traits I notice when I talk to people about the Conditioned Mind is not truly accepting themselves exactly as they are, with a self imposed label of imperfect being applied. There are so many conditioned desires engrained in each of us and if they’re not accepted as they arise, your existence will be a struggle; needing those desires to be different than what they are.

Accept yourself in each moment, desires and all and just watch as they arise. This isn’t a right or wrong thing, it’s just part of being human and it has to be accepted if there’s to be peace in your life. Tuesday was Election Day in the NJ and that means there’s opinionated energy all around which will cause much suffering as there will be desires for who’s voted for to play out the way it’s wanted. This wanting usually manifest as individual energy, but on election day it’s both individual and collective energy and if the results aren’t accepted as they are to some degree, it’s because your opinionated desires are in control and you want different results. Anything that happens has to be accepted as it is if there’s to be any semblance of peace. This is made difficult because of the things that occur and because as humans we apply attached labels to what arises as being unpleasant. This makes you want whatever arises to be different and as long as your energy doesn’t accept your humanness as it is peace will be fleeting at best; regardless of what happens on any given day…

Resulting Karma

Your life is shaped by the resulting karma of your actions. Everyone is their own judge and jury and for the most part your verdicts are determined by the actions that are done when no one is looking…

I remember cartoons from years ago when a Devil and Angel would pop up on the characters shoulders. This happened when a decision was needed. The figures that popped up were always the image of the individual, it was because that’s who the real struggle and conflict is with. Nothing outside of you can do you harm as your own unguarded thoughts can, and this mostly occurs when things aren’t lining up with the story of the way you think things should be. Karma is something that’s real, I can make it like I’m this spiritual guru and behind closed doors be selfish and unloving, but I’m not fooling anyone because wherever I go there I am. Each of us gets back the resulting karma of our actions. We are our own judge and jury and our verdicts are determined by the actions we exhibit; its never about what is shown, but what is done when no one is looking. What is done behind closed doors shapes your life.

I can preach love and recite all the nonsense that fits nicely into a so called spiritual box, but if I’m not showing loving kindness, it’s all being done to for one reason and that’s to satisfy the Devil cartoon character (ego) on my shoulder. So many conditioned stories are made up about life and this keeps one in their own prison. You can get in touch with this simply by seeing how much love you show to others. Lip service means little here because it’s not only the world that gets hurt, it’s also yourself. So much arises throughout life as the Devil and Angel characters pop up, just make sure the one selected allows for the resulting karma of loving kindness…

Chasing Lies

Whatever is used that you think is needed to be happy will be what becomes your chase. It’s not right or wrong, but the key is to understand if what you’re chasing will truly provide what you think it will…

The biggest misunderstanding of my writings are that the view of life I have today is the view I always had. To me, whoever is looked upon for inspiration or whatever, it should be noted that most likely they didn’t always see things as they do now. I’m fortunate to have experienced two totally different ways of viewing life; it’s where my insights arise from and the reason why I share what I do. Having lived chasing for so many years has actually become my greatest asset. When I write about something it’s always from a lesson that I learned, it’s never about being smarter or knowing more than anyone else. What is there is simply what’s there and it’s what’s shared. When I talk about quietness or stillness it’s because I lived a life full of chasing. When there’s talk of attachment, it’s because attachment was my master.

Everyone alive experiences life, what’s done with the experience determines what’s chased. An example is if you think you need a certain status to be happy that will be your chase. It’s not right or wrong, but the key is to understand if what is chased will provide what you think it will. Deep down inside having a certain status doesn’t change you; substitute status with anything. For me I went through a life of much suffering chasing what my Conditioned Mind made me believe was happiness; today I see this for the lie that it is. When I write something it’s because I can see the self serving chase I was stuck in; today I have been provided with a view of true liberation. I may be very direct in my approach, but I’m not insensitive to anyone else’s view, it’s just that I’ve been where most people are and I can see the chasing of lies that far too many remain stuck in…

The Lack Story

Until you can be with life as it is without lack, a lack story disguised as truth will continue its control and unfortunately so will the suffering of constantly needing to reach for something because of lack…

Just because you have a thought about something that doesn’t make it automatically true. It may be associated with what is thought to be true, but upon further investigation it’s probably just a made up lack story providing you with a direction of the way you think things should be. We use the story of helping others in this way, but it’s really in place to pat ourselves on the back because we make up the story that helping others is a good thing; we use anything to fill our arisen lack. We also use God in this way to strictly fill lack, nothing more. All these made up lack stories block you from seeing the truth of what’s really going on. If a story is being used to make up what truth is, I guarantee you it’s not truth, it’s only a story that’s arising from lack.

Truth is not something to know. It can’t be defined adequately with words because it’s only seen when the mind is settled. When you judge someone regardless of what they do, you are applying a lack story (your version of truth) of how you think they should be. This is the same with life situations, and these judgements are only there to fill some lack. Life is always as it is and until you can just be with it instead of always wanting it different, truth will never be experienced. Thus your lack story (a made up version of truth) will continue its control and unfortunately so will the suffering of constantly needing to make up a story from lack…

Inner Innocence

The more the self serving Conditioned Mind is in control, the more the light of your inner innocence is claimed by worldly desires and possessions, and the less awareness there is that your inner innocence exist…

Everyday is a time to reflect on the light of your inner innocence. We are all born of this innocence, but remaining aware of it determines how your inner innocence remains a part of life. There are many traps that takes a piece of your inner innocence and locks it away; very few traps takes it all at once. The self serving Conditioned Mind is developed and if this is followed unconsciously the inner innocence will be there beneath the surface; unseen. The Conditioned Mind takes on the role of trying to constantly arrange life to be a certain way, this is the opposite of our inner innocence.

Make no mistake the Conditioned Mind is self serving, wanting, and selfish. Our inner innocence is of light, it’s loving, caring and innocent. Depending on your up bringing and whatnot determines how much of your inner innocence is seen. To understand this is to know yourself and when you know yourself you can develop discipline to reverse the processes that trap your inner innocence. The more this is done, the more your inner innocence is present so the light of a loving and caring person shines forth as when life began.

If the light goes out, it can only be relit from within. The innocence of others can provide a spark to start this process, but it will be from the urging of your own inner innocence that the process will expand. It’s up to each individual to see their own light, or not and remain ensnared to a life that is self serving, wanting, and selfish, but choose wisely because it will determine if you see not only your own inner innocence, but also the innocence of the Universe…