Conditioned Wanting

Wanting is conditioned driven. It matters little to life or the Universe whether your wants are fulfilled or not. You can make up a story fulfilling your wants matters, but that’s your story…

You can want things to be a certain way, but to life this doesn’t really matter. Life isn’t a respecter of wants, it allows things for its betterment. If you’re one of the instruments which are being used in this capacity you’re truly blessed because you‘re probably assisting others in a unique way. This doesn’t make you special, but it does allow you to be free of the self-centeredness that holds most of the world in captivity. Wanting is conditioned driven, it matters little to life or the Universe whether they’re fulfilled or not. You can make up a story fulfilling your wants matters, but that’s your story not life’s. Fulfill every want in your life and at the end of it you will have exactly what you would’ve had if no want was fulfilled.

It always makes me laugh when I’m watching a baseball game and a player hits a home run. Many times it’s followed by pointing upward as if something cares more about that person as opposed to the pitcher. What happens when the other team loses, which is inevitable? I’m waiting for the day when a team loses and points downward. All this wanting means nothing to the Universe, and this is regardless if it works out or not. Things will always work out the way they work out; the Universe (life) doesn’t really care if they do or don’t. Wanting is only held onto because it’s thought to be needed, but because life isn’t a respecter of wants, suffering occurs because that’s what you not life has in place…

A Stillness View

When there’s awareness of a stillness view instead of an incessant mind view and you don’t engage in what comes from the mind, it makes for a view of life most people will never experience…

A view from the mind is very different than a stillness view; the mind has a much different agenda than stillness. Every conflict known to mankind has been because of the mind. Even when Jesus trashed the market place, it was from the mind; the proof of this was that he didn’t like what was going on; you cannot have a conflict from stillness. Stillness aches at times and all compassion comes from here, there’s an understanding from stillness that the mind just can’t grasp. Mind seeing is strictly from the way one is conditioned. Stillness arises from the space of Now. I can tell right away when someone comes from their mind because there’s attachment with what’s being said. Usually the sentences starts with my, I, me or it will be said, I see what you’re saying, but.

Seeing from stillness doesn’t make you smarter than anyone, all it means is you’ve been granted the vision to have a settled mind. It’s difficult to see from stillness because of all the mind based distractions in place. These distractions keeps you trapped to the reaching of a view from the mind. Reach, reach, reach, stillness needs no such reaching, it realizes its completeness as it is. When your view is from stillness you become more of an observer than a reactor, at least that’s been my experience. I’ve lived a mind based existence for many years. Even today the old conditioning resurfaces, but because of the awareness of the mind view, there’s no engagement with what comes from the mind. This naturally allows a view from stillness to arise; when you live from here it makes for a view of life that’s much different than the view most people will ever see…

Conditioned Reactions

You react the way you do to life because the reactions are put in place by your own conditioning. So if your life isn’t lived to its fullest potential, it’s your conditioned reactions blocking it from being so…

Although things appear to be a certain way it’s not always as it seems. It’s difficult to see beyond your own mind when conditioned reactions are brought into play. So much of what the Conditioned Mind holds in storage is used at particular times and this blocks life from truly being lived. We already have in place the conditioned reactions on how things that arise are going to be handled; conditioned reactions are formed to respond in this way.

The mind becomes conditioned by influences to put things in a certain place so your conditioned reactions makes them more attractive. This goes on and on because the Conditioned Mind determines it. If you had no previous conditioning nothing would be more attractive, but this is not the case. One of the keys to having beneficial reactions is to develop some way to be in the present moment. The more you’re in the present moment the less you’ll react to life. When this occurs there’s a peace that passes all understanding because the conditioned reactions in place no longer need things different than what they are…

Different Conditioning

So many people worry about getting to heaven and because of this life passes them by. A belief isn’t needed to see this, but it will take a very settled mind not to make it into one…

You believe in everything you have in place because you have decided (even though it was probably done unconsciously) that your beliefs will make life better. There’s no other reason to form a belief except for the purpose it provides satisfaction in some way. Look into this very carefully to see this in your life. God, money, material possessions, love, programs, spirituality, social status, enlightenment, and so on, are all formed to provide satisfaction based in a belief. If this isn’t questioned, the belief will continue its control even though it will not truly provide the satisfaction it’s being created for. It can’t because the nature of any belief is attachment and attachment to anything is suffering, even if it’s not seen as so.

Many call a belief faith, to me they’re basically used the same. I haven’t found one iota of usefulness in having faith or believing in something that would truly benefit my life. I live in the space of now and since there isn’t anything that needs to be different, a belief wouldn’t be beneficial. True freedom occurs in the space of not making up stories. It doesn’t take any effort or a story to be free. The reason why so many don’t become free is they try to create freedom by forming a belief about it; to believe in this or that is not freedom. Don’t worry about getting to heaven because if you do life passes you by while you are here on earth. It doesn’t take a belief to see this, but it will take a mind that’s settled not to make a belief about there being a heaven…

No Belief Freedom

So many people worry about getting to heaven and because of this life passes them by. A belief isn’t needed to see this, but it will take a very settled mind not to make it into one…

You believe in everything you have in place because you have decided (even though it was probably done unconsciously) that your beliefs will make life better. There’s no other reason to form a belief except for the purpose it provides satisfaction in some way. Look into this very carefully to see this in your life. God, money, material possessions, love, programs, spirituality, social status, enlightenment, and so on, are all formed to provide satisfaction based in a belief. If this isn’t questioned, the belief will continue its control even though it will not truly provide the satisfaction it’s being created for. It can’t because the nature of any belief is attachment and attachment to anything is suffering, even if it’s not seen as so.

Many call a belief faith, to me they’re basically used the same. I haven’t found one iota of usefulness in having faith or believing in something that would truly benefit my life. I live in the space of now and since there isn’t anything that needs to be different, a belief wouldn’t be beneficial. True freedom occurs in the space of not making up stories. It doesn’t take any effort or a story to be free. The reason why so many don’t become free is they try to create freedom by forming a belief about it; to believe in this or that is not freedom. Don’t worry about getting to heaven because if you do life passes you by while you are here on earth. It doesn’t take a belief to see this, but it will take a mind that’s settled not to make a belief about there being a heaven…

Shining Your Light

Shining your light to provide direction so others can find their way is important, but when the light is only lit to shine one direction, it loses its effect…

There’s no such thing as one direction to wake up to remove the blocks so your light can shine. It’s just about impossible to see exactly what another person‘s light is because no one has the same exact direction in the waking up process. The way some people push their waking up process as being the only way makes it pretty much useless. This is not to say this isn’t the way it is for that person, but that’s their experience and it’s very unlikely that two people let alone many have the same experiences. I know for me I just try to show people how to look inward so they can come to their own conclusions what works for them. I doubt anyone went through exactly what I did to get to the place I’m in now so why would I expect anyone to see things as I do.

I’ve found there are as many ways to love as there people in the world and none of them are necessarily wrong. I don’t know and don’t really care what others do, it’s not my place to judge. Although I understand the conditioning in place controls most, love should be the barometer to see the value of what you’re doing. To me the bottom line is to show love and respect to everyone, even if their way is not something I’ve experienced. The only reason someone shares something is because it’s what’s in place. Its not up to me to judge it, but it is up to me to watch my own actions and make sure they’re of love because if they’re not it will dim the light that others may see shining…

In Harmony With Life

When you’re in harmony with life it’s because you’re in harmony with the present moment. When you’re not in harmony it’s because the Conditioned Mind is in control…

Spirituality isn’t magical, it’s everyone’s true essence. Being alive is being spiritual and regardless if there‘s awareness of this or not, it doesn’t take away from the fact that your true nature is spiritual. Let’s take a practical approach to spirituality so the blocks to awareness can be narrowed down. Look at one of the most common realities of life, to me that would be everything that happens does so in the present moment. This is such a common reality of life, but it’s so hard to live in the present moment. We hear it all the time, live in the now, all we have is now, be present, yet it is so hard to remain present.

The point of this is the mind will not stay in harmony with the present moment on its own, there will be a need to develop some discipline so it becomes the minds default way. It’s only because of the way one’s mind has been developed to begin with that being out of harmony occurs. And understand this, the mind will not become reconditioned on its own, it needs help. It’s in the reconditioning of the mind where one becomes aware of their spiritual nature because when you can remain in harmony with the present moment, you’re in harmony with the Universe. If there’s the development of awareness of what takes a person out of harmony with the present moment, it will be revealed what takes you out of harmony with life itself. When this is understood the default setting of your mind will be of its true nature of the spirit because you’re in harmony with the only thing in place…

Made Up Purpose

Only the Conditioned Mind needs to make up a purpose for life. In the space of stillness everything just is and it’s clear that the purpose of life is to live with whatever’s there…

When this part of my life began it was with one thing in mind and that was to find a way to have peace in my life. It has pretty much remained this way, but it seems to be naturally going to a deeper level of doing what’s best for others. A made up purpose becomes a real life prison. For this reason I carefully watch how the mind, at least mine, wants to make up a purpose for life. These purposes are plentiful, but they’re all made up; when the mind settles this will be seen. This is what’s happening to me now, I care more for others than I do for myself, but not in the way where I’m making up a purpose to save them. I just go with what’s there.

What I mean by it’s just what’s there is, I don’t think about what I do, it‘s just a part of me. It’s just like the first forty nine years of my life were lived to satisfy my I Self without much thought of anything else. This was done because that’s what was there. You will do what you do because of what’s in place and until this is realized, a true purpose will never be understood because a made up one will always be needed. That’s just how the Conditioned Mind operates. When the mind quiets no labels need be applied to life, only the Conditioned Mind needs to apply labels and make up a purpose. In the space of stillness everything just is and it becomes clear in this space that the purpose of life is to just live with whatever’s there; without the need to make up a purpose…

Blinded Mind

A blinded mind can’t quiet itself regardless of the belief system used. Actually beliefs are a hinderance because they’re just a blinded response that blocks the quieting…

If a blinded mind controls your life, it doesn’t matter much what’s going on, it’s going to be difficult to quiet. It’s such a blinded world and what makes it so is most people are looking for outward fixes when the answer is inward. What the blinded mind actually is and how it’s created is by not being aware that you already have your answers. With a blinded mind that’s conditioned to want answers, you have to constantly look for them, hence the blindness. This is how the blindness of a Conditioned Mind is formed and how it blocks awareness. It’s blindness created because if you knew you had your answers, the need to look for them would be non existent and so would the blindness.

Everyone has the ability to develop awareness of the blinded mind, but it’s not something that’s going to happen on its owns. It’s a beautiful thing that your life is your hands and it’s totally up to each individual what is done with it. A little quieting of the mind equates to a little usefulness. It’s up to each individual to do what’s necessary to become more aware of the blinded mind. As you’re more aware of being present the blinded mind untangles and opens, what’s left is quietness. If you’re waiting for anything else, it won’t happen while you’re alive in this form as the blinded mind will remain in control…

Functional Tools

Are the tools you have in place truly functional to allow you to love yourself unconditionally and thus love all beings? The key word here is all, not just the ones you pick and choose…

For many years I did things that were considered functional, but after forty nine years I found myself at such a low point that I wasn’t sure if I was going to be able to rise up. There was no I think I can chants, no positive thinking, no meditation, no loving myself. There was much confusion and despair, and the insanity of this is my own mind developed these tools as functional. Now I know not many get to this place of total despair so it’s difficult to understand how low I was, but I will say this, I’m fortunate beyond words and I will tell you why. When I was twenty eight years old there were ten of us still hanging out in a bar in Newark NJ, all of us were using alcohol and drugs as functional tools. Out of those ten individuals eight are dead. What’s tragic about this is the tools that each of them accepted as functional were what caused their death. Think about how insane this is and how often this is repeated today. Insanity to say the least.

When I look back at what I thought were functional tools, I see nothing but this insanity. I alone although not intentional, caused all my own suffering. Now you may not think this applies to you, but every negative thought one ever has comes from within. It may have been put there by some outer influence, but it was attached to by you and seen as functional. I’m not a big negative/positive person, my experience has been more in line with quietness as the most functional tool to use, but it wasn’t always this way. To me the question to ask yourself if you can muster the courage to do so is, are you willing to truly face yourself to see if the tools you have in place are truly functional to allow you to love yourself unconditionally and thus love all beings…

Universal Intentions

The Universe has its own intentions and when the mind is quiet enough you’re in alignment with it. Not to satisfy a self created made up intention, but strictly for the betterment of the Universe…

You do what you do because the Conditioned Mind is your puppeteer. You wake up in the morning and the masquerade begins. You do whatever it is that you do and around sixteen hours later it’s time to go to sleep so you can do it again tomorrow. We say tomorrow, but the reality of life is it’s one continuous journey, there aren’t really any breaks in it. Time, days, years, decades, centuries, are all made up concepts. They’re needed to the extent of establishing some structure in life, but we hold onto them way too much; actually they’re allowed to control most lives.

I’m not saying nothing matters, but does anyone living really know the intent of the Universe and what truly matters? Universal intentions are relatively unknown. Sure we can make things up and as a species we’re actually very good at it. Intentions can be made up about helping others, or loving others, raising a family, being kind, awakening to a made up intention, working on this or that, or whatever it is that‘s used to justify existence. Fact: The bottom line is one day just like that and without permission, BANG existence ends. In the blink of an eye it’s over and whatever it is that’s used to make up an intention is let go of…

Delusional View

Everything in life passes and that’s a fact, a delusional view is what makes everything permanent. Only when the mind is at ease will the delusional view be seen for what it is and only then will the delusional view fall away…

Holding onto views even in the face of evidence that they’re false is the greatest of all delusions. Basically delusion occurs in views, believing what is seen, the mental reactions to what is seen, and holding on to what is seen even though it’s proven not to be as it’s seen. These first two views are the ones that occur the most, and many people learn from these to a large degree. The third view is where delusion becomes deeply embedded in the subconscious. It grabs hold of you and makes you do all kinds of nonsense. There are many ways the delusional views manifest, just look at all the things that are reached for. The delusion here is the thing will bring satisfaction, but as soon as it’s grabbed it’s gone so the next thing delusional view arises; this is delusion at its finest.

To me this is how a delusional view operates, you think someone is following you, that’s the beginning; it starts with a delusional thought. Now the mind takes over and the mental reaction view occurs or as I like to say “the nonsense view begins”. If the person thought to be following you passes you, the delusion will simply fall way, but if you’re in the grip of this type of delusional view, you will think the person passing you is just part of the plan. The delusional view will always have to run its course before subsiding. No matter what it is in life, it will pass away, that’s a fact, but a delusional view makes everything permanent so it can remain in place. Only when the mind is at ease will you see the delusional view for what it is and only when this is seen will the delusional view fall away…

Conditioned Understanding

Those who claim to know truth, but don’t understand their conditioning remain a slave to the conditioning. You needn’t have all the answers to know truth, you just need to understand how not to be a slave to your conditioning…

Some think it’s arrogant to claim to know truth. What makes me so sure that what I see is really truth is because the Conditioned Mind is understood. You see truth isn’t about having all the answers, it’s understanding the conditioning in place. At one time I thought I had all the answers and it was a problem because since I had all the answers I was ignorant of my conditioning which made me ignorant of truth; I couldn’t understand truth if I didn’t understand the conditioning.

Several years ago I began developing a practice of quietness which opened up an understanding of what it was to be a slave to the Conditioned Mind. I say “was” because I am a slave no more. I know the poison of the conditioning and I choose not to allow it to control me. I know how living selfishly and being judgmental causes not only suffering to myself, but also to those around me. Because this is understood I‘m provided with tools to live differently. If I wasn’t aware of this conditioning I wouldn’t be aware of truth.

The ultimate delusion is a person who claims to know truth, but doesn’t have an inkling of the Conditioned Mind; this is the place most people live. Many state that there are different versions of truth and no one can know all truth, but it’s been my experience there are different versions of conditioning, so to me there aren’t different versions of truth. When you understand the Conditioned Mind you will know truth. Remember truth is not about having all the answers, it’s understanding the conditioning. So all truth can be known, but only when one understands the Conditioned Mind…

Those who claim to know truth, but don’t understand their conditioning remain a slave to the conditioning. You needn’t have all the answers to know truth, you just need to understand how not to be a slave to your conditioning…


Some think it’s arrogant to claim to know truth. What makes me so sure that what I see is really truth is because the Conditioned Mind is understood. You see truth isn’t about having all the answers, it’s understanding the conditioning in place. At one time I thought I had all the answers and it was a problem because since I had all the answers I was ignorant of my conditioning which made me ignorant of truth; I couldn’t understand truth if I didn’t understand the conditioning.

Several years ago I began developing a practice of quietness which opened up an understanding of what it was to be a slave to the Conditioned Mind. I say “was” because I am a slave no more. I know the poison of the conditioning and I choose not to allow it to control me. I know how living selfishly and being judgmental causes not only suffering to myself, but also to those around me. Because this is understood I‘m provided with tools to live differently. If I wasn’t aware of this conditioning I wouldn’t be aware of truth.

The ultimate delusion is a person who claims to know truth, but doesn’t have an inkling of the Conditioned Mind; this is the place most people live. Many state that there are different versions of truth and no one can know all truth, but it’s been my experience there are different versions of conditioning, so to me there aren’t different versions of truth. When you understand the Conditioned Mind you will know truth. Remember truth is not about having all the answers, it’s understanding the conditioning. So all truth can be known, but only when one understands the Conditioned Mind…

In Tune With Love

Life can be totally of love when you’re aware of why it isn’t. Every musical instrument has the potential to play beautiful music, but it has to be kept tuned or the beauty of the instrument will be limited…

It’s a tuned musical instrument that allows you to hear the beauty of life, with an untuned instrument all you hear is noise. It’s true we all have our own journey and when the base of it is tuned with life, there’s love. The only reason some don’t hear the music is because there’s a willful ignorance that keeps their instrument untuned and trapped to a mind that’s been conditioned to only hear noise. Take the time to do what can be done to tune the mind and the music will be heard. Not so loud at first, but as the mind becomes more tuned the music gets louder and louder. It’s possible for everyone to hear the music, but unfortunately not many will get quiet enough to be a tuned instrument.

The Universe plays the music, but we tune the instrument. When it’s learned to do things that puts you in tune with life, the default setting of your mind will be based in love and the music will be heard; it will be beautiful. If your mind isn’t based in love, what’s heard from the instrument will be a sound that’s from an out of tune self-centered perspective; only noise will be heard. So be a tuned instrument that the spirit of life blows its breath through and all that will play through you is the beautiful music of love…

Life can be totally of love when you’re aware of why it isn’t. Every musical instrument has the potential to play beautiful music, but it has to be kept tuned or the beauty of the instrument will be limited…


It’s a tuned musical instrument that allows you to hear the beauty of life, with an untuned instrument all you hear is noise. It’s true we all have our own journey and when the base of it is tuned with life, there’s love. The only reason some don’t hear the music is because there’s a willful ignorance that keeps their instrument untuned and trapped to a mind that’s been conditioned to only hear noise. Take the time to do what can be done to tune the mind and the music will be heard. Not so loud at first, but as the mind becomes more tuned the music gets louder and louder. It’s possible for everyone to hear the music, but unfortunately not many will get quiet enough to be a tuned instrument.

The Universe plays the music, but we tune the instrument. When it’s learned to do things that puts you in tune with life, the default setting of your mind will be based in love and the music will be heard; it will be beautiful. If your mind isn’t based in love, what’s heard from the instrument will be a sound that’s from an out of tune self-centered perspective; only noise will be heard. So be a tuned instrument that the spirit of life blows its breath through and all that will play through you is the beautiful music of love…

Mind Clinging

When there’s a need to reach for something it’s because of mind clinging. Until this is seen you will remain clinging as you seek to quiet the mind with the next thing reached for…

You will never find the peace you’re seeking if your mind clinging because the seeking is why you’re not at peace. Peace is something that’s already within everyone, but because of the way our minds are conditioned there’s mind clinging which makes one think peace is something on the outside. Unfortunately mind clinging makes the very thing you’re seeking impossible to grasp. Mind clinging is the reason you constantly reach for something from the outside. Until this is seen you’ll remain mind clinging thinking peace is in the next thing reached for. Alcohol, gambling, drugs, sex, religion, social status, programs, therapy, self help books, politics, and on and on, this reaching is proof that there’s mind clinging. I can’t stress this enough as this mind clinging has to be seen if you‘re to experience true peace in your life.

It’s impossible to think your way to understanding this. What has to happen if there’s to be an understanding of this is why you mind cling is because of the inability to just be. When the need to reach for something arises mind clinging begins. This mind clinging is a vicious cycle that’s very difficult to break. Breaking free of the mind and being at peace isn’t something attained or achieved so by doing less (detachment) peace is experienced. Too many people get lost (mind clinging) trying to find peace through the attachment to humanness, but since it’s something that’s already within you, the mind clinging is a circle because it becomes about finding what’s already there. This is not easy to see, but it’s why I share so the mind clinging can be seen for what it is; the cause of why you aren’t at peace…

Based Energy

Based energy determines how you live. If that energy is constantly based on yourself, you’ll be selfish. If you possess the whole world, but aren’t free from self, you’ll remain based in a self created prison…

Being free from the prison of self requires basing your energy away from self-serving thoughts. When the mind isn’t based on these thoughts there’s a freedom that allows the mind to become free. What makes it get stuck is energy that’s mostly based on satisfying self in some way. Based on the sensation of mind, body, and mental formations helps to alleviate the bondage of self. This is a direct path to how to become free from suffering. You can only be free when your base is on what allows freedom, but it’s tricky because mastering this takes constant vigilance. It will be your directed base that determines the extent of freedom and that will be the determining factor how your life is lived.

Freedom from suffering is not pain free, it’s learning to be with the pain that arises. You cannot hide from what’s happening, but you can only be focused on something that bases you in the Now. To no longer be based on self is the path of liberation. How this is done is by simply not focusing on self and being based on what will set you free. The self is there and it has been given a name. It has so many other different labels attached to it, but it’s a prison because of the mere fact of attachment. Freedom occurs when there’s an understanding of the lies of self, not in creating concepts or beliefs. Where your energy is based determines how you live. If that energy is constantly based on self, you will be selfish. If you possess the whole world, but aren’t liberated from self, you’ll remain stuck in your self created prison…

Trusting Now

Happiness is a by product of love. It’s not something that can be forced to happen. It will only happen when you‘re trusting now to produce it as opposed to trying to force it…

We can try and force things to happen in our life or we can trust now. Trusting now produces a much different living arrangement than forcing it. Instead of the constant tugging, there’s a certain ease when you trust. The tugging is produced directly from trying to force things. Trusting now produces the opposite, both are within your grasp. It’s a matter of what you truly want in your life.

You will know what you want by what it is you pay attention to. The things that you pay attention become the base of life. If you always pay attention to wanting the pleasures of life then self serving energy will be your base. If you always pay attention to how can you bring more love into the lives of all beings than that energy will be your base. To be free of the self serving mind is to stop trying to force happiness. To cultivate a mind that looks how it can love more produces a life that’s based in trusting now. When you stop trying to force your happiness, it is then that you will be happy; it’s a by product of trusting now…

Optional View

The only way to have an optional view is to have another one in place that will allow it to happen. This is where quietness comes in because without it there won’t be awareness of an optional view…

The boob tube isn’t my favorite way to past time, but the other night I caught the last hour of a hockey game. When the game was over I began looking for something else to watch. Twenty seconds on one channel, ten seconds on another, five on another, then another and another, you get the picture. It’s amazing how we stay locked in on something, in this case it was the boob tube. We’re so reluctant to go to an optional view even though we’re going round and round in circles. Actually what’s on the boob tube is mostly reruns, yet we’ll watch the same show (thoughts) over an over. Even though there are many shows we get stuck on one and don’t know there are options.

Think of something you get locked in on and see how hard it is for options when it gets you in its grip. Unless there’s awareness of this, an optional view will be just about impossible. The only way to see options is to have something in place that will allow it to be optional. This is where quietness comes in because without it there won’t be awareness that options are available. It may be a repeated single thought disguised with many different labels, but it’s still an old thought. Watch the subtleness of this and in time you’ll see your view for what it is and how it likes to default to what’s familiar. The issue is you can get so comfortable with this that it’s not realized you have options; this realization will only occur if you have an optional view that makes a difference…

Void of Awareness

Truth arises when a person looks within. All sorts of things happen when there’s awareness of this. But when there’s a void of awareness, the mind becomes agitated and creates a lie to sidestep the truth…

It's unfortunate, but most people live a life consumed by lies more than truth. They believe they're living by truth, but if further investigated this fallacy can be seen. On the outside the lies seem like truth, this is what keeps a person locked into them. But this is only because the Conditioned Mind makes this up. The truth makes you look at yourself; all sorts of things arise when this happens. Without this understanding truth will be avoided as if it was a plague. Becoming aware of the lies so truth can be revealed is essential in understanding yourself. Sit with the expectation that you will sit in stillness and watch how little stillness there is. Just sit and be with whatever’s there, that's where truth is. When the mind isn't looking for anything, truth arises.

The void of awareness causes the mind to create lies. Seeing this void is when the mind settles. This doesn't mean you don't make changes, but when changes aren’t needed that’s when the mind settles. This is why I don't share about positive versus negative, because if it's negative and you want something positive, it's no different than if you’re positive and you don't want anything negative. An agitated mind is a mind void of awar and needs things to be a certain way whether it's positive or negative. The void of awareness is the lie. Truth arises when nothing needs to be different. Your mind will settle when life is accepted as it is, this is when the void of awareness disappears…



Addicted to Thinking

If there’s awareness of what you think about you may be able to settle in a place where your emotions aren’t in control. You may even realize life isn’t really about you, you just think it is…

As long as you’re alive life happens, actually life happens even if you’re not alive there just isn’t awareness of it. Life isn’t really about what happens as much as it’s about how much you relate your thinking about what happens. This is where the conditioning steps in and determines the relation to what happens next. It can be of love, it can be of hate, but for most it teeters between the two. Very few go to the extreme of either one of these emotions so the results for most humans are balanced. When these emotions do hit an extreme level the results are very noticeable and this is all contingent on how much you’re conditioned to think about yourself; this thinking are manifest as emotions. If you think love as the main thought in your life, obviously you will love more than a person who thinks hate thoughts. This all arises from inside the individual so if you truly notice the base of your thinking, you may be able to alter this thinking instead of relying on divine intervention which will probably not occur. It will take some practice to allow the mind to settle so this is noticed.

The addiction in society is attachment to thinking and when you’re the main subject of that thinking, it makes your existence very irrational. Now multiply this by billions of people and hence you have the world we live in; billions of people constantly thinking about themselves strictly for personal gain. There’s no one to blame for this because it arises from within each of us. From the mass murderer to the person who is a people pleaser, it’s their thinking that causes extreme emotions and everything else in between. So sit often with the intention of developing the ability to notice your thinking about yourself and you just may be able to settle in a place where your emotions aren’t in control. And hopefully you’ll come to the realization life isn’t really about you, you just think it is…

Loving Reality

A loving reality only occurs in the present, self-serving desires disrupt this from being seen. Only a mind that’s settled in the present can understand a loving reality…

Sometimes it’s difficult to know what the right thing to do is. I’m not talking about clearly recognizable things, sometimes it isn’t so clear as to what should be done. It’s especially difficult when it involves other people. For myself letting go allows for me to be more centered on love in some of my responses to people. This is all part of the learning curve of letting go. It matters little what one’s intentions are if what comes out of the mouth isn’t of love.

This learning curve isn’t to be held to strict adherence, it’s more so used to stay opened to the expanding view of love and not get caught up in a self-serving view. Love and tolerance have to be at the forefront when others are involved. It’s not always easy to understand where others are coming from so it’s better not to judge and to try and deal with situations from a loving place. This is much easier said than done, but by practicing quietness it gets easier to decipher what the right action is. We shouldn’t be too hard on ourselves because of our Conditioned Mind, the slow process of awakening has to be accepted if there is to be peace. On the other hand our conditioning is not to be ignored because we won’t learn from it and the same reactions will be repeated over and over again.

Although our journey may seem mundane at times, it’s only a self-serving mind that makes it seem this way; life can never be mundane. Each moment of each day is new unto itself, and when it’s lived in the present it’ll be realized what a gift life truly is. It’ll be understood that what our learning curve affords us is not the mundane life of living in the past or future, but the ability to live in the present and respond to life from a place of love instead of reacting to it from a self-serving mind. The more this is done, the less mundane life will be and the more love one will have for themselves and hence for all beings…

Never Ending Chase

The belief that the next thing attained will make you complete is what keeps you in the mode of the never ending chase. It can stop, but only if it’s realized you’re already complete…

There will be completeness when this happens next, the next fix, the next satisfaction, or the next whatever is used in the never ending chase. What’s next goes on to infinity, it never ends until it’s realized there is no end and you will always be on the never ending chase for that which is already here; who is the chaser and why all this chasing. Either there’s completeness now with the way things are or there isn’t. You may think chasing the next whatever will bring utopia, but it never ends because there’s nothing to truly attain that ends the chasing. The Conditioned Mind will tell you different and that’s why there’s chasing, but what you really need to ask yourself is who is doing the chasing and why? The fictional character of self that’s been made up to think things need to be a certain way for completeness is just that, fictional and this is why there’s the never ending chase.

The self that makes up this nonsense that you’re incomplete is just a story; this is what keeps you chasing. The dream of attaining a certain status, the next promotion, the trophy partner, the next book, the next whatever keeps you in the never ending mode of the chase. A chase that will either end because this is realized or because life in this forms ends: the chase will end one day. How it ends will be determined if you spend your entire life chasing after that which is already here or if you stop the chasing because it’s realized you‘re already complete…

Stillness Expansion

Intellect doesn’t make you wise. Wisdom is something that occurs as you learn to understand your own mind. With this understanding wisdom arises and goes beyond intellect…

Until you truly understand your own mind, not much will ever be different in your life. This is because in order for things to be different it has to be understood why they are as the they are. Awakening is not something that one makes happen, it’s something that occurs. How you will know that it occurred is by the awareness you have that your mind was based to self serve and now it’s based in stillness. Very simple to see this once it occurs, very difficult to see it if it doesn’t. The key to the expansion of stillness is to know the true nature of your own mind.

One day it was revealed to me that at the core of all my issues was my own mind and nothing was ever going to be different in my life if there wasn’t an understanding of this. I had to understand why I had to always be busy before I could be still; before stillness was experienced in my life I had to find out why there wasn’t any. Stillness doesn’t have to be attained for one to acquire it, all that’s needed is to be aware it’s not there. Once this occurs there’s a starting point that can be established and the process of stillness expanding the mind begins, but for this to occur it needs to be understood.

When it’s said the world needs to different, it should be understood why it’s the way it is. If a problem arises find out why the problem arose in the first place and therein lies the answer. Things will always be as they are and the only way they’ll ever be different is when it’s understood why they are as they are. Once this is known nothing needs to be different because of the understanding of your own mind…

New World Order Lies

Understand the New World Order lies and there won’t be anything left but truth. Not a made up story of truth, but a real honest to goodness (God) truth based on facts not lies…

The biggest lie we are told by the New World Order is they do what they do to benefit humanity. This is reinforced by the entire Deep State global structure in place. Believing the lies is at the core of humanity’s misaligned existence; their lies create all our issues. Religious sects all claim to have the truth, no facts, just their truth. Corrupt politicians fix problems based in lies with solutions based in lies. The entire entertainment and sports industry are based in lies that create the false impression of them and us. This creates separations and there will never be truth in separation. There’s also the “Great American Dream” lie of owning a home, the Central Bank no doubt created that lie. Lie after lie after lie, and what happens to an existence based in lies, it becomes an existence of liars. Not because this is wanted and not because the truth isn’t known, it’s simply because the lies aren’t understood by the people. No one can really know the truth who believes the lies, that is until the lie and the liar are exposed.

The bible states “The truth will set you free” I say understand the New World Order evil lies and there will be nothing left but truth. Not a made up story of it, but a real honest to God truth based on the facts of what’s really happening as opposed to the story the fake news media creates to suit the lie and the liar (NWO). It’s an evil lie that has been handed down for years and it’s been the base that we’ve been living from for most of if not all of our lives. Very strong language, but true. Look inward and you just may see truth, but it will only happen if you can see the lies of the terrorist organization New World Order…

Conscious Awareness

Everyone who is alive is at least semi conscious; this is basically true for all beings. Where humans differ from other species is in the ability to be aware of being conscious…

A friend shared a story about a cat he has as a pet. It seemed the cat actually liked this person. He would hold the cat and it would fall asleep in his arms. It would lick his hand and take food from him. One day as the cat was eating out of a bowl, this person took the food away before the cat was finished. The cat bit and scratched his hand, so much for liking the individual. The cat knew his food was being taken away, but it ended there. There was no awareness of who was actually taking the food, his food was being taken away and the cat didn’t like it. This is how a lot of humans react to situations, they like people as long as they don’t take away what they like.

To go beyond this mindset there must be awareness of it. This is where we as humans differ. Other species don’t have this ability to be truly aware. If you look around it would seem most humans don’t have this ability either. What will have to transpire at some point in your life for this to change is truly being conscious of being aware; noticing what arises when what is liked is taken away or just when something naturally changes. This is key if you’re not going to be drawn into the unconsciousness of what’s changing. Suffering comes from not being consciously aware of being controlled by what’s liked. When there’s awareness of this, one can be conscious of it, but not attach to it, thus one is free. What you like will still be taken away at times, but hopefully you have conscious awareness of this and you won’t bite or scratch when it happens…

Sheepish Triggers

What the unawareness of sheepish triggers do is it keeps the opposite energy of what you’re making a stand for in place, and in the process it doesn’t change anything…

The triggers of life are in place to grab you and pull you deeper into a sheepish state. Not many break free once a trigger is set. But if you know the trigger (generated from your own mind) is there, it’s less likely to grab you; not being aware is what activates the trigger. Not many investigate what their triggers are so they’re set sheepishly. By the time they’re noticed it’s usually too late and you become a prisoner to the trigger. This has been going on since humanity began, today’s world is just as insane as a thousand years ago, there’s just more news coverage and social media to spread the insanity; make no mistake that’s what’s being done. This cause, that cause, I don’t like this or that, all the sheepish energy being put out, I have been unfriended by some because they have chosen not to look at this. The insanity in place cannot be seen by the one who is insane; strong language, but true.

Get triggered into the story of the injustices that appear to be going on, but understand this is nothing new. It has been and will continue to occur because of the energy being put out by all. This isn’t to say the injustices aren’t there, but taking a stand against them feeds them with energy to allow them to continue. If you don’t think this is true, what has changed in the last two and a half years or even the last thousand years in the way humanity reacts to things? This article isn’t about the last two and a half years because this energy has been in place for many many years. This is what the unawareness of a sheepish triggers do, it keeps the opposite energy for what you’re making a stand for in place. And in the process although this energy makes one think they have to stand up for what they believe, it doesn’t change a damn thing…

Loving Existence

Love flows as behavior and can be measured in the way people are treated. It’s difficult, maybe even impossible to act selfishly or self-serving when your existence is based in love…

Although there was love all around me growing up I never understood it. I didn’t know how to love myself or others. I would always behave in ways that was destructive to me and to those around me. Some of this was learned and some of it just seemed like it was from within myself. The problem with this is if I didn’t act it ways that showed love to myself there wasn’t any way I going to show love to others. Unfortunately without love as the base of life, it makes it very difficult to live a life that’s meaningful.

It’s often said that love is the true nature of life, but that doesn’t mean it will be the base of every life. Look at what some people are doing today. Ask their victims family if love is their true nature. Most people have a certain degree of selfishness in them, but only a few have it to the degree that it manifest as evil. I was very selfish which caused most of the decisions I made were done so to satisfy myself. But it’s not this way today because I learned the valuable lesson of what it means to not only love myself, but to love my neighbor as well; I truly don’t want to hurt anyone today. Love flows as behavior and it can be measured by the way people are treated. It’s hard to act selfishly or self-serving if your life is based in love…

Created Discontent

Your created discontent arises from questioning. Without discipline the mind that’s full of questions won’t have any answers provided so you’ll have to look externally and constantly be discontented…

Your created discontent is ego based because it comes from the Conditioned Mind. If you’re creating discontent with what’s written here, that arises from within you; words don’t create discontent. It doesn’t matter if you agree with this or not, just understand if there’s created discontent it comes from within you, not something from outside of you. We love to put blame on something external for our own self created discontent. The only reason this is done is because of the lack of understanding of your own mind.

Nothing creates discontent unless it’s allowed. If you can change something by all means change it. If it’s being changed just because you don’t like it, it needs to be looked at why you’re creating discontent to begin with. Even if the thing is changed, you’ll just move onto the next thing that will cause you to become agitated and then create discontent once again.

Everything I’ve come to understand has arisen from within myself. It has been through the discipline of NOW that real answers have arisen. I can’t have anyone else’s answers because the one who questions is the one with the answers. I don’t have your answers because I don’t have your questions. Truth is the same for all beings, but how we come to its understanding is from within. When you sit in the stillness of the heart, revealed are answers. This is when the need to create discontent with yourself and with the world will be no more…

Past Agitations

If you keep allowing the agitations of the past to control the present the past will be where you live your life. Why this is unfortunate is because all of the emotional agitations of the past will be carried into the present…

The amount of times that you relive something that causes emotional agitations is mind boggling because it’s your own mind that does this; this happens hundreds of times throughout the day. This is why most people suffer endlessly because the past agitations are constantly brought into the present. Although the body is always in the present moment, the mind is constantly somewhere else. This is the constant agitation most people have in their life and if nothing is done to change this, it will continue until existence in this form ends. This isn’t a philosophy or something I made up, you need only look at these past agitations for yourself to see this truth. If you don’t you will most likely remain stuck in the past without a way out.

As a species we seem to hold onto the past and become agitated by it even though it doesn’t truly exist. This is because looking at ourselves in an investigative way is not something that many people are willing to do. It’s so much easier to point the finger at someone else, but unfortunately when you point your finger at someone there are three pointing back at you; check this to see its truth. You can ignore this and keep the story that everything will work out or you can take control of your life, at least to some extent and stop attaching to past agitations that cause your own suffering. After all the same thoughts constantly arise, if they’re not attached to eventually they’ll stop and so will the repeated past agitations and the emotional suffering they cause…