Your Own Light

It’s the selfish view of satisfying “I” that keeps you from the vision of seeing your own light. This vision of light only occurs when your vision comes from looking inward…

Although no one is more special than another in this existence, there are some who do see things from their own light; what makes this happen is looking inward. I wouldn’t label some as chosen, but I would say some are more inclined to not attach to a selfish view which allows for a clear vision of your own light. the other view seen is a mind based me, me, me, view. I’ve experienced both views which are vastly different, one is in the direction (outward) where there is much self created suffering. The other is a inward view of your own light. The differences in the two views is one creates suffering and is done unconsciously in ignorance and the other is lived in the awareness of this ignorance. Today the selfish distractions don’t control me as much as they once did; there is still conditioning, but my inward light view is mostly in control.

The vision of your own light that occurs is a by product of awareness and as the selfish view is let go of, it opens up space to allow wisdom full insights to occur. This opening is directly linked to the letting go of “I”. It’s the “I” that attaches and it’s the cause of all suffering. Ever so slowing when one begins to look inward the distractions of “I” give away to light. To me this is what was revealed to the great mystic’s that people considered special, but all they did was see their own light. Looking inward is available to everyone, but you will have to overcome the selfish view that keeps you distracted from the vision of your own light which will only be seen when you look inward…

Heart of Existence

IIf you’re to ever get to the heart of who you truly are, it’s going to take some studying of the Conditioned Mind along with the willingness to sit so the process of peeling away your conditioning begins…

Nothing will ever change as long as people continue to blame others and look outside themselves for their answers. If you can’t get beyond all the conditioning that’s in place, getting to the heart of existence which requires nothing but being in its space will be just about impossible; this is only because the Conditioned Mind doesn’t allow it. Using the well known onion analogy: every onion has a center, but unless the onion is peeled it’s center will never be exposed. It will always be there as it’s a natural part of every onion, but without actually peeling the onion the center will remain hidden. The natural process of an onion is to cover its center, this is also the way human nature has evolved and because of this very few people ever get to their heart.

Underneath all the conditioning is the heart of existence, there’s no blame and there’s no looking for answers but within the heart of existence. When the conditioning is peeled away one layer at a time, the heart gets more exposed and your true nature takes hold. If there isn’t awareness of this, nothing will ever change because it can’t. It’s like a force field is around the heart and without awareness it seems as though it’s impenetrable. Take heed though because it’s not impenetrable, it’s just going to take some studying of the Conditioned Mind and the willingness to begin the process of peeling away the so called onion so you can get to the heart of who you truly are…

Human Desiring

Life is not made to be perfect where it has to be the way you think it should be. Whatever arises has to be accepted exactly as it is without the imperfect desire of wanting things different…

Being human means you will have desires and unless this is accepted exactly as it is without needing things to be a certain way, life will seem to always have some kind of struggle associated with it. One of the common traits I notice when I talk to people about the Conditioned Mind is not truly accepting themselves exactly as they are, with a self imposed label of imperfect being applied. There are so many conditioned desires engrained in each of us and if they’re not accepted as they arise, your existence will be a struggle; needing those desires to be different than what they are.

Accept yourself in each moment, desires and all and just watch as they arise. This isn’t a right or wrong thing, it’s just part of being human and it has to be accepted if there’s to be peace in your life. Tuesday was Election Day in the NJ and that means there’s opinionated energy all around which will cause much suffering as there will be desires for who’s voted for to play out the way it’s wanted. This wanting usually manifest as individual energy, but on election day it’s both individual and collective energy and if the results aren’t accepted as they are to some degree, it’s because your opinionated desires are in control and you want different results. Anything that happens has to be accepted as it is if there’s to be any semblance of peace. This is made difficult because of the things that occur and because as humans we apply attached labels to what arises as being unpleasant. This makes you want whatever arises to be different and as long as your energy doesn’t accept your humanness as it is peace will be fleeting at best; regardless of what happens on any given day…

Resulting Karma

Your life is shaped by the resulting karma of your actions. Everyone is their own judge and jury and for the most part your verdicts are determined by the actions that are done when no one is looking…

I remember cartoons from years ago when a Devil and Angel would pop up on the characters shoulders. This happened when a decision was needed. The figures that popped up were always the image of the individual, it was because that’s who the real struggle and conflict is with. Nothing outside of you can do you harm as your own unguarded thoughts can, and this mostly occurs when things aren’t lining up with the story of the way you think things should be. Karma is something that’s real, I can make it like I’m this spiritual guru and behind closed doors be selfish and unloving, but I’m not fooling anyone because wherever I go there I am. Each of us gets back the resulting karma of our actions. We are our own judge and jury and our verdicts are determined by the actions we exhibit; its never about what is shown, but what is done when no one is looking. What is done behind closed doors shapes your life.

I can preach love and recite all the nonsense that fits nicely into a so called spiritual box, but if I’m not showing loving kindness, it’s all being done to for one reason and that’s to satisfy the Devil cartoon character (ego) on my shoulder. So many conditioned stories are made up about life and this keeps one in their own prison. You can get in touch with this simply by seeing how much love you show to others. Lip service means little here because it’s not only the world that gets hurt, it’s also yourself. So much arises throughout life as the Devil and Angel characters pop up, just make sure the one selected allows for the resulting karma of loving kindness…

Chasing Lies

Whatever is used that you think is needed to be happy will be what becomes your chase. It’s not right or wrong, but the key is to understand if what you’re chasing will truly provide what you think it will…

The biggest misunderstanding of my writings are that the view of life I have today is the view I always had. To me, whoever is looked upon for inspiration or whatever, it should be noted that most likely they didn’t always see things as they do now. I’m fortunate to have experienced two totally different ways of viewing life; it’s where my insights arise from and the reason why I share what I do. Having lived chasing for so many years has actually become my greatest asset. When I write about something it’s always from a lesson that I learned, it’s never about being smarter or knowing more than anyone else. What is there is simply what’s there and it’s what’s shared. When I talk about quietness or stillness it’s because I lived a life full of chasing. When there’s talk of attachment, it’s because attachment was my master.

Everyone alive experiences life, what’s done with the experience determines what’s chased. An example is if you think you need a certain status to be happy that will be your chase. It’s not right or wrong, but the key is to understand if what is chased will provide what you think it will. Deep down inside having a certain status doesn’t change you; substitute status with anything. For me I went through a life of much suffering chasing what my Conditioned Mind made me believe was happiness; today I see this for the lie that it is. When I write something it’s because I can see the self serving chase I was stuck in; today I have been provided with a view of true liberation. I may be very direct in my approach, but I’m not insensitive to anyone else’s view, it’s just that I’ve been where most people are and I can see the chasing of lies that far too many remain stuck in…

The Lack Story

Until you can be with life as it is without lack, a lack story disguised as truth will continue its control and unfortunately so will the suffering of constantly needing to reach for something because of lack…

Just because you have a thought about something that doesn’t make it automatically true. It may be associated with what is thought to be true, but upon further investigation it’s probably just a made up lack story providing you with a direction of the way you think things should be. We use the story of helping others in this way, but it’s really in place to pat ourselves on the back because we make up the story that helping others is a good thing; we use anything to fill our arisen lack. We also use God in this way to strictly fill lack, nothing more. All these made up lack stories block you from seeing the truth of what’s really going on. If a story is being used to make up what truth is, I guarantee you it’s not truth, it’s only a story that’s arising from lack.

Truth is not something to know. It can’t be defined adequately with words because it’s only seen when the mind is settled. When you judge someone regardless of what they do, you are applying a lack story (your version of truth) of how you think they should be. This is the same with life situations, and these judgements are only there to fill some lack. Life is always as it is and until you can just be with it instead of always wanting it different, truth will never be experienced. Thus your lack story (a made up version of truth) will continue its control and unfortunately so will the suffering of constantly needing to make up a story from lack…

Inner Innocence

The more the self serving Conditioned Mind is in control, the more the light of your inner innocence is claimed by worldly desires and possessions, and the less awareness there is that your inner innocence exist…

Everyday is a time to reflect on the light of your inner innocence. We are all born of this innocence, but remaining aware of it determines how your inner innocence remains a part of life. There are many traps that takes a piece of your inner innocence and locks it away; very few traps takes it all at once. The self serving Conditioned Mind is developed and if this is followed unconsciously the inner innocence will be there beneath the surface; unseen. The Conditioned Mind takes on the role of trying to constantly arrange life to be a certain way, this is the opposite of our inner innocence.

Make no mistake the Conditioned Mind is self serving, wanting, and selfish. Our inner innocence is of light, it’s loving, caring and innocent. Depending on your up bringing and whatnot determines how much of your inner innocence is seen. To understand this is to know yourself and when you know yourself you can develop discipline to reverse the processes that trap your inner innocence. The more this is done, the more your inner innocence is present so the light of a loving and caring person shines forth as when life began.

If the light goes out, it can only be relit from within. The innocence of others can provide a spark to start this process, but it will be from the urging of your own inner innocence that the process will expand. It’s up to each individual to see their own light, or not and remain ensnared to a life that is self serving, wanting, and selfish, but choose wisely because it will determine if you see not only your own inner innocence, but also the innocence of the Universe…