Deceptive Void

The Conditioned Mind creates a deceptive lie seen as a void, this void is a lack of love. Until this is realized, one will constantly need to reach for something to try and fill this deceptive void even though it doesn’t truly exist…

For many years I had a deceptive void in me that was created from a lack of love. That’s why I constantly reached for things to fill it, I have since come to understand this. This deceptive void isn’t a true void at all, it’s emptiness; this emptiness is the essence of love. It’s where life truly happens when one is busy making other plans. By not understanding this, I spent most of my life trying to fill a deceptive void with whatever I could get my hands on. This is an endless list as to what can be used, so each individual has to investigate for themselves what that is. It’s ironic though because now most of my life is spent in the space that for so long was a deceptive void; the truth of this has been revealed to me.

This deceptive void is the reason a person reaches for anything or wants life to be different. If this was understood humanity would be much different because contentment would be the way of the world. The void is a deceptive lie of the Conditioned Mind and it keeps one constantly needing the present moment to be different so it keeps you reaching to fill it. This will need to be understood if the reaching is to ever end. When it’s understood, the deceptive void transforms to love because the present moment doesn’t need to be different. When the present moment doesn’t need to be different, life reveals its true essence which doesn’t ever need to be filled with anything because the deceptive void is seen for the lie that it is…

Doing Mind Limits

A doing mind is a mind that has limited conditioned ideas based on a sense of self. Because of this there’s no space to just be…

As long as the doing mind is in control, there will be limited peace because at the core of this doing is the sense of self. The sense of self may be the hardest concept to let go of because it’s interwoven with just about every thought. Even though it has also been in place since existence began, it’s not the sense of self that limits, it’s the attachment to it. I have a sense of self simply because I exist, but the attachment to it has lessened significantly in the last few years. This has opened enough space to allow being instead of doing. This is not to say I don’t sometimes attach to the sense of self, but never like the first forty nine years of my life.

People who question what I write about don’t realize there’s an understanding of how my mind works because I’ve sat and investigated why I reacted and did the things that I did. Very few truly investigate their Conditioned Mind and this leads to doing mind limits. This doesn’t make me better than anyone knowing this, but by having an understanding of the lies that limited and controlled me for so many years, it allows me to not attach to them. I would have to say therein lies the difference between having doing mind limits or being free to just be. This also creates the difference between doing mind limits or the unlimited expansion of being…

Universal Energy

Universal energy points to the heart. The energy of the heart is the energy that’s known; this is when we’re connected. Universal Love is the true energy that transforms…

Make a stand for what is known of the heart, not what is believed in the head. Experience truly becomes a loving principle because it becomes what is truly known in the heart. A belief is not truly known, it’s just some story made up by the Conditioned Mind to make you feel warm and fuzzy inside. When
you think the story is true and you try and make others see it, issues arise. You can never know truth, yours or anyone’s else’s unless it’s experienced; at which time it’s no longer a belief, it becomes a fact for the experiencer. 

For most of my life I didn’t understand this so I didn’t do the things that were conducive to my spiritual well being; if I don’t understand me, there’s no way I can understand you. I cannot know what someone’s path is even if I am walking side by side with them. When I share my experience, it’s not to force something on someone, it’s to tell what I’ve experienced. In the process if it assist someone on this journey called life, so be it. The Universe has the energy to transform lives, not individuals. When the individual thinks it’s them, there in lies the issue. Become the instrument of Universal energy and your heart will be your guide

Undisciplined Mind

When there’s a need to reach for something it’s because of an undisciplined mind. Until this is seen you will remain undisciplined as you seek to quiet the mind with the next thing reached for…

You will never find the peace you’re seeking with an undisciplined mind because the mind being undisciplined is why you’re not at peace. Peace is something that’s already within everyone, but because of the way our minds are undisciplined, it makes one think peace is something on the outside. Unfortunately an undisciplined mind makes the very thing you’re seeking impossible to grasp. An undisciplined mind is the reason you constantly reach for something from the outside. Until this is seen you’ll remain thinking peace is in the next thing reached for. Alcohol, gambling, drugs, sex, religion, social status, programs, therapy, self help books, politics, and on and on, this reaching is proof that the mind is undisciplined. I can’t stress this enough as the undisciplined mind has to be seen if you‘re to experience true peace in your life.

What has to happen is there has to be an understanding of the undisciplined minds inability to just be. When the need to reach for something arises the undisciplined mind takes control. This undisciplined mind creates a vicious cycle that’s very difficult to break. Disciplining the mind and being at peace isn’t something attained or achieved; by doing less (detachment) peace is experienced. Too many people get lost in the undisciplined mind trying to find peace through attachment. Since it’s something that’s already within you, the undisciplined mind creates an agitation; it becomes about finding what’s already there. This is not easy to see, but it’s why I share so the undisciplined mind can be seen for what it is; the cause of why you aren’t at peace…

Imagined Feelings

Feelings that aren’t based in facts are just a figment of the imagination. Stick with the facts and stay connected to life, or not and live a disconnected state of existence…


There are times that it seems there’s more of a connection with life than at other times, but it isn’t life that changes, life just is; it’s something in us that causes our disconnect. This is the same when we feel disconnected with people, it’s always something within ourselves that causes the disconnect. Even if there’s interactions with the most evil person alive, when you’re connected with life, you’ll have compassion for them because you’ll understand the prison they’re in. When a disconnect does occur, compassion is non existent and feelings turn to whatever your conditioning calls for. The more conditioning there is the more there’s a feeling of being disconnected, and what you’re disconnected from is Love.

No matter the circumstances, we only internalize our feelings and allow them to control our emotions when we come from a place to self-serve. The more the minds default setting is to self-serve, the more disconnected one feels from Love. Our connection to life is related to living in the present moment and how we rightly relate ourselves with it. The connection is because in the present moment the mind isn’t allowed to roam around in the past or future so by being present, you’re in full cooperation with what is, which puts you in cooperation with life. When you cooperate with life you’re connected to Love which connects you to life. So live now and live life, or not and live life in the imagined state of feeling disconnected…

Thirst of the Heart

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Delusional Story

The value of knowing yourself is priceless because it allows the mind to settle instead of needing to make up a delusional story to be something that you’re not…

One of the insights revealed to me is having the awareness of my own presence. What is meant by this is to be aware of who I truly am and not to need a delusional story of who I am. When my book was published I was thinking of ways to get its message to people. Just by the fact that it was written I knew there was a valuable message to share about how my view of life became real instead of delusional. Shortly afterwards I started writing and posting articles on social media sites. One day I was contacted by a site to write articles for them, I thought this was a great way to get my books message some exposure. After about six articles the admin of the site said people were contacting her about my articles, saying they were like teachings and asked if I could make them more inspirational. I thought about it and decided I couldn’t compromise the message revealed to me. I told her I wouldn’t change my style; I didn’t write another article for them.

It was important for me to stand my ground and not be someone other than what was revealed to me; it’s just as important today. The value of knowing who you are is priceless because it allows the mind to settle instead of needing to make up a delusional story. I’m not this loving spiritual head in the clouds person; I am what I am. If there was such a thing as a spiritual labors union, I would be the head of it; I’m a blue collared spiritual person. I understand many things, but my feet are mostly planted in the present moment so if it’s not happening now, it doesn’t really matter all that much to me. I’ve learned early on that a delusional story isn’t needed to be something that I’m not. What this allows is to not have any delusional energy within myself and in the process just be at peace with who I am. Not everyone agrees with what I write, but at the end of the day it’s me who I’m with, and I’m grateful there’s no need for a delusional story to be something that I’m not…

Attachment Restrictions

Whatever you attach to it becomes your restricting energy. If you don’t stop attaching so there’s some space created that’s needed for you to love, you will suffer the most…

The so called choice to attach to things is the gateway to suffering, but there really isn’t a choice here because of the way the Conditioned Mind is in control. Suffering is inevitable because of the conditioned attaching energy that’s in place. If this is to change, space needs to be created so the attaching energy is replaced by first stillness then by love; there’s no way around this. Attach to whatever the flavor of the day, week, month, or year is, just understand there will always be something to attach to which will cause you to suffer. Today it’s politics, tomorrow it’s a co worker, the job, traffic, weather, relatives, and so on. This will never change until there’s space for love. If you attach to one individual and bemoan them you don’t truly have the space for love in your heart. This is strong language, but it’s true. 

Unconditional love can only be without one iota of attachment. This is a truth the Conditioned Mind doesn’t allow most to see. I can say I have love for all humanity, what I don’t love is humanity’s conditioning, but I do understand it and I choose to not attach to conditioned nonsense. Attachment leads to suffering regardless of who or what is being attached to because it becomes restricting energy. Until this is understood you become the very thing that you show discontent towards. This is a Universal Law; you cannot be separate from the energy that comes from you because it is you. Stop attaching and create space in your heart for love, if you don’t you are the one who will suffer the most by remaining with the restricting energy of what you are attaching to…

Labeled Thinking

Labeled thinking keeps you attached to a world where there’s very little freedom because there’s very little room for truth. If you want freedom labeled thinking will have to stop…

The more your thinking labels something, the more you attach to those labels. It’s difficult to experience the openness of something if you’re attached to how you think it is. To remain open one needs to limit their labeled thinking. This is essential if there’s to be alignment with the Universe and be free from the attachment of labeled thinking. Being attached to labels holds you captive and will need to be let go of if there’s to be freedom; this is very subtle. Even the labeling whether you agree with this post or not will keep you in captivity. This post can resonate with you without a label, but labels seem to make the world go round. That doesn’t mean it’s a good thing, but that’s just another label.

I lived a labeled thinking existence for most of my life, this caused much conflict within myself. If you’re really honest with yourself you’ll see that every disagreement you ever had with someone was caused by being attached to a label. I’m not saying you shouldn’t stand up for truth, but truly knowing about something and thinking about it are totally different.

There is a place of non labeling. If this isn’t understood you’ll never be free, and you’ll remain in an existence of your labeled thinking. When you can just be with life as it unfolds and not label it as this or that, you’ll be on the verge of truly experiencing life, label free. When you’re not thinking of applying a label to everything, there’s freedom to be with life as it is without the need of a label that keeps you captive to it…

Mother Love

Mother love is special because of the connection she has with her child. This connection is unconditional love beyond what words can describe and it’s a love formed in the womb because mom and the child are one…

Mother love is something that needs no words to describe. It’s a love that’s forever binding regardless of what happens. Watching a mother care for her child is so beautiful and this isn’t limited to humans. Mom loves from instincts, it’s a love that occurs from within. Watching a mother take care of her child is the love that everyone should have for each other. This love is the same love that the Universe has for each and everyone of us. A Mother loves all her children the same as the Universe loves all of us the same. Mom doesn’t see color and never puts conditions on her love, she just loves. If we are to survive as a species we will need to go beyond the limits of the mind and see how to love unconditionally. We’ll need to observe how a Mother loves and mimic that with all humanity.

A Mother’s love never ends, there may be disappointment in her heart at times, but that’s only because she wants what’s best and it’s the love in her heart crying out. Mankind is on a course of self destructing and it’s because of the lack of love in their heart. If it’s not seen how the Universe is our mother and we are all brothers and sisters, our separation will be the end of us. Mom is always there for us as is the Universe, but unfortunately we are given enough rope to hang ourselves and that’s exactly what many do. Watch a Mother give birth and see the sparkle in her eyes, it’s the same sparkle (the stars) the Universe has for all humanity. This sparkle arises because there’s no thought of herself, the child born is just an extension of herself; they are one. Only when we all see each other in the same way will we as a species turn our attention to loving each other unconditionally; seeing the sparkle of oneness in each other’s eyes…

Narrowed Choices

Going through life without an understanding of how your mind works makes your existence much more difficult because it narrows your options, and narrowing your options narrows your choices…

We discover the cause of all suffering when we are truly able to see our mind for what it is and understand how it creates feelings and emotions that aren’t real. They feel real because of what our association is to them, but their reality is only relative to our thinking and the association to our identity. When this is discovered and we disassociate with this kind of thinking, we become more aligned with the Creative Intelligence of the Universe which to me is love; love is what gives us so many more choices in life.

When we stop believing in the nonsense of the self created world of thought, we learn how to allow love to be our guide. This is when we will be able to see our thoughts for what they truly are, disassociate them from who we are and separate the ones that cause suffering and aren’t beneficial to anyone; this is when our suffering ceases to exist. This is not some belief, it’s something factual; I know this because it’s my direct experience. A thought cannot cause anything unless it’s given the energy needed to do so and this is what determines if the thought is held onto or not. The more it’s held onto, the more control it has over you. In the awareness of this is one’s freedom. It’s one’s own ignorance of this that creates one’s own suffering, and the suffering is caused by going through life without an understanding of how the mind works because it narrows your options, and with narrowed options your choices are limited…

True Reliable Options

Reaching is the issue not the thing reached for. Not everything one thinks is a reliable option truly is. It will take a very settled mind to see if what you’re reaching for is truly a reliable option…

Do what you think is a reliable option for your well being, but it needs to be investigated to see if what you’re doing is truly reliable and not just a story of what you think. Many people play the lottery to become rich so to become rich becomes a so called reliable option. Sex is often used as being a so called reliable option as is the spiritual path. Drugs, alcohol, gambling, and also their counter parts (their programs) are used as a reliable option, but as the results of these options may be different, the prison they keep you in is the same. Working out and healthy eating habits are reliable options, but many attach a story to them and negate their reliability. I know many people are vegans and I have no opinion either way, but no where have I ever read that Jesus or the Buddha used this as a reliable part of their practice. All I’m saying is what I’ve found to be truly reliable needs no story or attachment for certain results.

I can only share my experience and I’ve found reaching for anything in whatever form it takes on is not truly reliable. The reaching is the issue, not the thing being reached for. To me in the space of just being with what arises in the present moment is truly reliable. Not everything you think is reliable truly benefits your life. It will take a very settled mind to see the subtleness of the attachment to things that are deemed reliable. I say if you’re reaching for something regardless of what it is, it’s not a reliable option for your well being. This is because the reaching itself is the issue as it keeps you in a mental prison…

A Selfish View

There’s not much life in a selfish view. What happens with a selfish view is the free flowing energy of truth is cut off. A selfish view always causes suffering, truth alleviates it…

A selfish view is what causes one to get locked into only seeing things from the side of suffering. It matters little what that selfish view is, as it’s the rigidness of being in a selfish mode that doesn’t allow free flowing energy. The is what happens when a story is created and it becomes a selfish view of what life is about in any particular moment. The selfishness become deeply ingrained as one becomes emotionally tied into whatever the selfish view is focused on. It’s very difficult to not attach to things that makes up a story that is held onto, but you can have compassion, passion, and genuine love for something without attaching to it and being controlled by a selfish mind.

To me, the selfish view is the normal view of many people and it’s why many suffer unnecessarily. I’ve noticed this occurring in so many lives and I can see the suffering it’s causing. Unfortunately those in the midst of this selfish view cannot see it. Nor can one pull themselves out of it until the selfish view is seen as the cause of suffering. The selfish mind doesn’t allow the openness needed to be free from attachment, and since attachment is the root of suffering, suffering is inevitable. The tighter the grip of something the more one is trapped in a selfish view and the less free flowing energy there is in one’s life. There’s not much life in a selfish view because what happens is the free flowing energy of truth is cut off, The selfish view always causes suffering, truth alleviates suffering…

Conflicted Status

There’s no harmony when selfish energy is running the show. Simply put without harmony we have everyone going in different directions trying to attain a certain selfish status…

Nothing really means all that much in the grand scheme of life when it comes to achieving a certain status in our society. Not that there’s anything wrong with this, but it doesn’t equate to anything except to selfish energy. This energy is what actually makes selfishness what it is; it creates conflict. When selfish energy is embraced, it creates an I am special aura or a look at me persona, but the truth of the matter is, when it’s time to leave this world nothing is taken with you. I’ve learned one very important lesson in my life and that is my life has nothing to do with me. I say this in the sense of what any life is about. Life itself doesn’t really care what occurs, it’s selfish energy that makes it important by the story it creates of “I”. It attaches to “I” and adds all kinds of things that creates a look at me persona. A celebrity status goes to most people’s head, but it doesn’t really mean anything. Just loving and keeping things in their proper perspective is what gets it done for me, with the “it” being a level of quietness that doesn’t need a selfish story to be.

Anything added to life doesn’t really enhance it in any way. Being with life as it is and not needing it to be of a certain status is so much more beneficial as an energy than putting out selfish energy. So much of selfish energy is reinforced by ”I” and it’s why the world is the way it is. Selfishness can’t exist without a certain energy that feeds it. Without awareness of this, just by the design of idolizing, selfish energy is constantly reinforced. I’m right and you are wrong energy is also the kind of energy that’s in place and it makes for many selfish charged situations. There’s no harmony when selfish energy is running the show. Simply put, without harmony we have a conflicted world trying to attain a certain selfish status…

Settled Mind Truth

Meditation allows for one to go inward so truth is revealed. A truth that requires a settled mind so it can arise…

When there’s no need for reading, writing, reciting prayers, attending meetings, helping others or anything else for that matter, it allows for the so called mud in the lake (the mind) to settle. The mud will never settle and the water will remain cloudy until there’s stillness that allows the water to stop moving. Most ignorance arises from thinking the mud will settle on its own although the lake is constantly being stirred up.

The Conditioned Mind creates ignorance, this ignorance creates suffering which blocks truth from being seen and keeps one on the Merry-go-round of the Conditioned Mind. Until this is seen the mud in the lake will never settle and one will never be able to get off the Merry-go-round as you remain a slave to the conditioning and ignorance of yourself and others. But if it’s learned to say yes to what is, what stirs the mud (the mind) that holds you captive to your own ignorance will settle…

Conflicts Within

Existence is continuous until one day it’s not. It becomes conflicted within because of the attachment to self. Without this attachment, the beauty of life unfolds as the conflicts within fall away…

The real cause of any issue with life is not with what actually happens, but how we attach a self to it. Life occurs regardless of the self, but what attachment does is it makes it conflicted within by isolating it and making it personal. Life is neutral until it’s attached to, then it becomes an event that’s all about the self. Without self, conflicts within don’t happen, life just occurs. I’m not insinuating a self exist or not, all I’m saying is the attachment to self is at the root of all conflicts within; if you want to be free of the conflicts within, you‘ll have to be free of the attachment to self…

Created Shackles

Whatever it is that holds you captive becomes your shackle. If you don’t stop making what arises a shackle and make room in your heart for love, you’re the one who will suffer the most…

The choice to hold on to something and make it a shackle is the cause of suffering. There really isn’t a choice in this because of the way the Conditioned Mind controls. Suffering is inevitable when the Conditioned Mind makes everything a shackle. If this is to change, you’ll have to make room in your heart so your shackles are replaced by stillness and love. There’s no way around this, make whatever you want a shackle, but understand when it passes something else will replace it. Today it’s politics, tomorrow it’s the job, the co-worker, traffic, or something else; this will never change until there’s room in your heart for love. If you hold on to a person and loathe them, you’re blocking the space for a loving heart, this is strong language, but it’s true.

Love of the heart can only happen without any conditioning. The Conditioned Mind doesn’t allow most to see this, it prefers to create shackles. I can say I have love for all beings, what I don’t love is the conditioning in place. I understand it and I choose not to create shackles and feed into conditioned nonsense. To hold on to things is to suffer regardless of who or what you’re holding on to because it becomes your shackle. This is truth; you cannot be separate from the energy that is in you. Stop creating shackles and make room in your heart for love. If you don’t you’re the one who will suffer the most by creating shackle after shackle of what you’re holding on to…

Everything Changes

Life is based on the inevitable fact that “everything changes” and regardless if this fact is accepted or not, change still happens. Resistance to change is where one’s problem lies…

Everything changes, understanding this one phrase helps one understand one of the most important aspects of life. The more one is resistant to change, the more discontented one will be because of the nature of things. The tighter one holds onto resisting change, the tighter will be the chains that imprison you.

Understand nothing stays the same, ever. Our life is constantly changing, so why resist something that’s going to happen anyway. You can want something to stay as it is, but that will not stop it from changing. You can go to the gym to keep your body a certain way, but eventually your body will change, no matter how hard you work out. There’s nothing wrong with working out hard, just understand one day your body will not be the way it is now. If you can’t accept this, you will have a difficult time. You can substitute the working out with anything. How about losing your hair, or getting older looking, or getting sick, or having a loved one get sick or die with or without warning. This list can go on forever, you get the point.

Change happens all the time, it’s inevitable. Acceptance of it is optional as is the suffering that goes along with it. You will have to make the decision on whether you will resist change or if you will come to an understanding that “everything changes” and there isn’t a damn thing you can do that will stop it from happening; no matter how much you try to resist it. Change is a natural part of life. It’s inevitable it will happen and unless it’s resisted, you can remain free as if the change had never occurred, but it will take an understanding that “everything changes” no matter how much one doesn’t want it to be so…

Seeing the Light

Everyone is born of light, it’s the conditioned mind that keeps one in darkness. The teachings of Jesus show us how to love so we can see this light, but many ignore these teachings and remain in the dark…

We live in a world designed for darkness, not evil, but darkness, there is a difference. Just because a person is unconscious doesn’t make them evil. If you look around, the self centeredness of our world is rampant. People go out of their way to deny Jesus’s teachings of love and thus they deny themselves love’s light, but it’s only because they’re unaware that it’s their own darkness that blocks them from seeing the light. If there is an evil in this world this is it.

Jesus pointed and gave us a way to our own heart through his love. He gave us a path to the Father (Universal Love) through his love for us and this is a path to our own inner light. Ignore this if you want and remain in the conditioned darkness, but understand you not only bring suffering to yourself, but you bring suffering to all humanity because darkness keeps one from spreading the light to others, and although Springtime and Easter are synonymous with renewal and light, it will only be when unconditional love is truly understood that one will see the light…

Seeking Pleasure

The most important thing to understand about seeking pleasure is the less attachment to “I” there is the less you will seek because without “I” there’s no one who needs the next pleasure…

Seeking pleasure is so enticing because it actually feels good; this is why seeking it is so powerful. There’s only issue with this because of the impermanent nature of pleasure. It simply will not last, it has no staying power so something will always be sought almost immediately following the attainment of each pleasure. Think about it, with all the pleasures that have been attained throughout your life regardless of what it was, it doesn’t bring the pleasure now that it brought at that time. Most times even if the same exact pleasure is physically repeated it’s usually not as pleasurable as the first experience. I used so many things as I was seeking pleasure, but it was never lasting; the need for the next pleasure always arose. This went on all the time, attaining one pleasure after another and never being satisfied. 

I’ve come to understand that seeking pleasure is the main reason people start using alcohol, drugs, gambling, sex, money, tobacco products and an array of other things. If pleasure wasn’t sought, nothing would be reached for so there would never be seeking; unfortunately the seeking of pleasure has its way with people. It’s deeply ingrained in the subconscious and has been in place since existence began. 

I know seeking pleasure is what controlled me for forty nine years and it was directly associated with “I”. Without “I” no one is there to seek. Even with this understanding seeking pleasure doesn’t just disappear, but it does subside somewhat. To me, the most important thing to understand about this is, the less attachment there is to “I” the less you will seek pleasure because without “I” there’s no one who needs the next pleasure…

Mind Craving

The pleasures of the world take on many forms, but it’s the craving of the mind that makes one seek them. This craving can only be satisfied in stillness because when the mind is still there’s nothing to crave…

One aspect of the Conditioned Mind is how it craves pleasure most of the time. Even when we get down on ourselves, it’s a perverse crave for pleasure. The mind wants to keep all the pleasure thoughts and discard the unpleasant ones. It spends most of its time doing this. Whether it’s weaving in and out of traffic, only to catch a red light and have all the cars that you just passed pull up along side you, or doing something and asking yourself why you did it. The reason for doing this is strictly to satisfy the mind crave for pleasure. That your own mind questions why you do what you do is how diabolical it is, but understand it’s only this way because of the way it has been conditioned to crave.

Pleasure seeking craving is not in our best interest, but the Conditioned Mind doesn’t really care about that; control is all it cares about. It makes you think craving pleasure is a necessity, but when the mind starts to settle and it loses its grip on you, you will see the fallacy of this. True pleasure is in stillness not in things; craving stillness is not the same craving for what the world offers. The pleasure of the world is based in lies, the pleasure of stillness is based in truth. It’s only in stillness that cravings are truly satisfied, not because it’s given something, but because in stillness cravings don’t materialize so there’s nothing that needs to be satisfied…

Inner Battles

Nothing that happens in life creates an inner battle unless your own mind allows it. This is the insanity of a Conditioned Mind, its self destructive solutions are from within and they take away your peace…

The bottom line for me is I’ve found a practical way to minimize the inner battles in my life that caused my own destruction. Which by the way is my own mind creating an inner battle telling me it’s needed to cope with life; a life that was controlled by a destructive mind set. My own mind created all the inner battles that went on by choosing actions I thought I wanted to do, but my choices always caused suffering. I developed a mind that told me to do things that were self destructive. From relationships, to drugs, alcohol, gambling, and a slew of other things, nothing was ever chosen that was beneficial for me; my choices always seemed to cause more harm than good. How this mind set developed I’m not sure, but I do know this, it can be described as pure insanity.

Many years ago although it wasn’t a white light experience, an inner urging occurred that was tired of all the destructive behavior. I wasn’t sure what was going to happen, but I did know I needed to find a way to bring peace into my life. A label didn’t need to be applied to what happened to me. All that was needed was for me to know was my behavior which was once totally self destructive was no longer this way. This is why labels and what others do isn’t a concern of mine. Because I know for years my own mind allowed these things to create battles within myself and because of the shift that has occurred, there’s an awareness that inner battles don’t have to be created anymore. The bottom line is this, when I have an issue with something it’s my own self destructive mind that creates a battle which means I’m not a peace, but now because there’s awareness of this I don’t allow mind created inner battles so there’s peace. So again the bottom line is to not create inner battles. All I ever wanted in my life was peace, but I didn’t know it was my own mind that was the cause of why there wasn’t any…