Be the Difference

You can be a difference maker, but only if you know what will make a difference. Understand the energy of love and you’ll know what’s needed to make a difference… 

It’s the people factor that has been lost in what is occurring today in society, and it’s causing everyone to suffer; the sad thing is it’s all preventable and unnecessary. The difficult part in all of this is not how to fix it, but how to remain an instrument of Love throughout this insanity. Everyone has their own journey and it isn’t my job to fix anyone, but not to be drawn in to all the negative energy associated with this is where my obligation lies.  People are upset and have every right to be, but the unfortunate thing is all the negative energy doesn’t change anything. Regardless how anyone is labeled, it’s not who they are. A label doesn’t give anyone the right to disrespect another person. 

All the labels associated with a thing are used to create a perception; a false way of looking at life. When labels aren’t applied there is stillness; it’s in stillness that Love is present. Then and only then will reality be known; the reality that things aren’t as they appear unless you make it so. If you don’t get drawn into the labels, you won’t get drawn into someone else’s perception of reality. You can be a difference maker by knowing what will make a difference. The energy of Love is the difference maker…

Fortitude Within

Looking at yourself takes an amount of fortitude that most people will never possess because the conditioning in place won’t allow it. Until this changes the conditioning remains in control…

It’s very sad to see the things people are ok holding onto, with the emphasis totally on satisfying a deranged self. This is done without much consideration for anyone else and it’s strictly from a self-serving perspective. I know it’s because most people know not what they do, but the suffering this causes and how it reinforces the conditioning in place is truly mind boggling. I said this because if you’re truly awake there’s the understanding that the way things are is the way things are; wanting them different also reinforces the conditioning in place. I’m writing about this because there are answers that many don’t have the fortitude to embrace. It’s like there’s a cure for cancer, but some just won’t listen. Without going into specifics, the conditioned unconsciousness runs so deep that people will justify all kinds of selfish behavior without blinking an eye; drugs, alcohol, gambling, porn, rioting, protesting, total defiance for any authority, murder, rape, assault, robbery and looking inward, this is only the tip of the Conditioned Mind iceberg. 

Here’s why this is, at least from my experience. It’s much easier because of the conditioning in place to justify selfish behavior than to have the fortitude to look at yourself. Looking at yourself takes an amount of fortitude that most people will never possess because the conditioning in place won’t allow it. Until this happens your conditioning remains in control. There’s really no way around this. You don’t have to save the world, but you have to have the fortitude to look inward so you can at least save yourself…

Mind Hunger

Although the pleasures of the world take on many forms, it’s the hunger of the mind that makes one seek them. This hunger can only be satisfied in stillness because when the mind is still there is no hunger…

One aspect of the Conditioned Mind is how it’s in a pleasure seeking mode most of the time. Even when we get down on ourselves, it’s a perverse form of pleasure. The mind wants to keep all the pleasure thoughts and discard the unpleasant ones; it spends most of its time doing this. Whether it’s weaving in and out of traffic, only to catch a red light and have all the cars that you just passed pull up to the same light, or doing something and asking yourself why you did it, the reason for the doing is strictly to seek some form of pleasure. That your own mind questions why you do what you do is how diabolical it is, but understand it’s only this way because of the way it has been conditioned.

The pleasure seeking mode is not one which is in our best interest, but the Conditioned Mind doesn’t really care about that; control is all it cares about. It makes you think seeking pleasure is a necessity, but when the mind starts to settle and it loses its grip on you, you will see the fallacy of this. True pleasure is in stillness not in things, but the pleasure of stillness is not the same pleasure that the world offers. The pleasure of the world is based in lies, the pleasure of stillness is based in truth. The parable in the bible speaks of satisfying a hunger that only God (stillness) can satisfy. This hunger is the self seeking pleasure of the world, this is the hunger the world creates, but it cannot be satisfied. It’s only in stillness that this hunger is satisfied, not because it’s given something to satisfy it, but because in stillness a hunger never materializes so there is no hunger to satisfy…

Life Teacher

Allowing life to be as it is and not needing it different allows life to be a teacher so you learn the lessons that are needed…

It order to not get caught up in making life about a preconceived idea, it’s very important to remain in the present moment. To me if life is about anything, this is it because it’s the only place that actually exist. Life has been my teacher as I have learned so many valuable lessons the last fifteen years, but regardless I’m always led to the one lesson; non attachment is the only way there will ever be freedom. And it can only be done when our state of being is anchored in the present moment. This is not a belief or concept, this is the lesson that life taught me. I don’t really understand all the other teachings, they seem to be about something created instead of one that arises. Any teaching that’s created to be about something is just a concept or belief; a true teaching arises, it’s never created.

When you’re present, you’re with true reality. If there’s non-attachment to this reality it will be impossible to lose your center of being; therefore you would never ever suffer. Look deeply at what is attached to. Even if there’s some behavior that’s not changed, if there is non-attachment to it, you will remain free. Attachment/non judgement is the only true state of being where one is free. Even trying to change the world for its betterment is a form of attachment. Allow life to be as it is and it will be a teacher so the lessons that are needed can be learned…

Inner Contentment

When your contentment is pursued from the outside, it’s only a mask to keep you from knowing that your contentment can only come from within. Look within and you will never be without…

To be awake is to stop using things from the outside to provide contentment. This is very difficult to see because of the conditioning in place. Alcohol is something that is used by billions of people for contentment, but what if it wasn’t available what would be used? How about drugs, food, sex, working out, getting ahead in life and so on, these are all on the outside, but true contentment comes from within. So why do we constantly go outside to find inner contentment? Find this answer and you‘ll discover a peace never experienced before. Even the so called spiritual journey is on the outside. The ability to look within gives the feeling that you will never be without.

The only way this truth can be revealed is by developing a mind quiet enough that allows this truth to be seen from within. I talk to many people about this as they are smoking a cigarette or are in the grip of some other form of conditioned behavior; it’s just not seen how destructive their own behavior is. We can’t see our own unconsciousness because of the Conditioned Mind.

We are dependent on outside things to fill our inner discontentment. Truth revealed is ignorance removed. The world of outside contentment is a world of delusion. When you’re quiet enough to look inside and your discontented reaching subsides, it will be inner-stood how much you have been controlled by delusion. Probably for the first time you’ll be able to cut the strings that have been controlling you like a puppet on string. The bottom line is this, you will either control your reactions to life or they will be controlled for you by the discontentment of needing to reach for outside things…

Illusionary Reality

To expose your created illusions, why they’re being created needs to be understood. If this understanding doesn’t occur the illusions remain as your reality which in turn makes your life illusionary…

The way the base of your thoughts are formulated determines if you see what actually occurs in life or if life becomes an illusionary reality of your formulated thoughts. Because of the lack of clarity of truth in most peoples lives, this creates two realities occurring at the same time. One is what is actually occurring and the other is your illusional thoughts of what’s occurring. The more unaware a person is of this, the more their thoughts make up an illusionary story of life instead of living a life that’s actually occurring.

If this is how you’re living it makes for a very unproductive existence because an illusionary life is being lived; when this is done your entire existence is an illusion. It’s like a magic trick, no matter how real it seems, it’s not. To expose what makes a trick seem real, how the trick is done needs to be understood. It’s the same with life, to expose the created illusions, why they’re being created needs to be understood. If this doesn’t occur the illusions remain as your reality.

Thoughts are the base of all illusions because without the belief of something, it’s impossible for an illusion to exist. All illusions start with a thought that it‘s real, but the thought isn’t what’s actually occurring so two realities are happening at the same time; one is created (the illusion) and one just is. The one you live your life by determines if it’s based in what’s actually occurring or if you’re living a life of illusions created by the Conditioned Mind. There’s living your given life (what is) or there’s life made up. It can be an illusionary creation of your thoughts or it can be the reality of what is. There are always two realities to choose from, the illusionary one needs to be exposed. If this doesn’t occur the illusions remain as reality which in turn makes life illusionary…

Fabricated Existence

When living life isn’t based in facts it becomes a fabricated existence. Stick with the facts and stay connected to life, or not and live a fabricated existence…

There are times that it seems there’s more of a connection with life than at other times, but it isn’t life that changes, life just is; something in us causes our disconnect. This is the same when we feel disconnected with people, it’s always something within ourselves that causes our disconnect. Even if there’s interactions with the most evil person alive, when you’re connected to life you will have compassion for them because you will understand the prison they’re in. When a disconnect does occur, compassion is non existent and the emotion turns to whatever fabrication your conditioning calls for. The more conditioning there is the more there’s a fabrication of being disconnected, and what you’re disconnected from is love.

No matter the circumstances, we only internalize our feelings and allow them to control our emotions when we come from a place of a fabricated self. The more the self is fabricated, the more disconnected we feel from love. Our connection to life is related to living in the present moment and how we rightly relate ourselves with that moment. The connection is because in the present moment the mind isn’t allowed to fabricate in the past or future. By being present, you’re in full cooperation with what is, which puts you in cooperation with life. When you cooperate with life you’re connected to love which connects you to life. So live now and live life, or not and live life in a fabricated state of existence…

Worldly Attachments

The ways to be drawn in by the world are endless, but understand the draw comes from your own mind and even though your conditioning provides the triggers, you alone attach to them…

If you’re practicing to live a spiritual life, but you don’t know your own mind, it’s like going to the gym, but not making much of an effort to work out; your results will be non existent. If you don’t notice your attachments, the whole point of any practice is missed. This is because of the draw of the world which makes looking inward difficult. There are so many things in place that prevent looking inward from happening, and if it doesn’t happen, you’ll remain in bondage to worldly attachments. Attachments are all they are because when there’s even the slightest opening to allow what’s within to be seen, your expansion begins.

The attachments to the world are very enticing. If it wasn’t the percentage of conscious and unconscious beings would be reversed. It’s this way because the attachments to the world are in control. This is only real to the degree of one’s worldly attachments. There’s no denying they’re there, but they’re in control because there’s attachment to the belief they’re needed. We alone are the creators of this, if one doesn’t become familiar with their own mind, the worldly attachments will continue their control, sadly there’s really no way around this…

Now Stamp of Approval

If you’re always looking to what’s next in what gets your stamp of approval, maybe you shouldn’t be doing what’s next. What’s here now holds the key to what gets a stamp of approval, what’s next is the delusion that something else is needed…

Yesterday I got a call from the company who published my book. They asked me what was next as far as my book was concerned, my answer was nothing. There is much freedom in this because not my book or anything defines me. The world may attach definitions to certain things and they’re used to define you, but if the world’s stamp of approval is needed for what you’re doing, maybe you shouldn’t be doing what you’re doing.

There’s never a need to do the next of anything unless you think it’s necessary for your stamp of approval. If you need it for a stamp of approval you shouldn’t be doing it because it isn’t from the heart. You may make up a story to justify what you’re doing; no one is the judge of that but your own heart. If the Universe is truly your guide, then it’s from the Universe that all things occur. It doesn’t mean you don’t do, but what you do shouldn’t need a stamp of approval to validate yourself. The Conditioned Mind creates so much nonsense to keep you in your chains, but if you’re going to ever understand your completeness, the Universe has to be the one in control. It has to be the source of your stamp of approval if you’re to be complete. Here’s why; if you look for a stamp of approval in anything else, it will not last because you will always have to do what’s next. 

Another book, another promotion, another client, another 12 step meeting, another spouse, another house, a vacation house, retirement, saving lost souls, retreats, meditation and on and on and on, but when the Universal Energy is where you derive your strength from, you will get you stamp of approval because there won’t be an attachment to a you who is doing so there won’t be a you who needs a stamp of approval. When this is understood you will be complete because what to do next won’t matter because you will not be relying on it for your stamp of approval…

Internal Light

The internal light is the true essence of all beings. The only reason there’s darkness is because the light is looked for externally. When there’s awareness of your internal light, it instantly replaces darkness…

There needs to be awareness of the internal light of the heart so the dark places of the mind dissipate. The internal light is always there just waiting to replace darkness, it never leaves. When you live from the mind the thought realm is allowed to take over and it becomes very difficult to have awareness of the internal light. This internal light is what turns away the darkness of an unconscious state of mind; this unconscious state is the world of external answers. As long as answers are sought externally, darkness will remain. Darkness creates a world that’s mind based and this is what blocks awareness of internal light. It doesn’t allow for the pure essence of the life to be recognized. It holds onto the belief that life is to be managed so it can be a certain way, but even if the way that it’s wanted occurs, darkness remains because it’s mind based.

The internal light on the other hand is of the heart. When seen it replaces the darkness without effort; as when entering a room and the light is turned on the darkness is no more. That’s all that’s needed, the light needs to be noticed. The internal light always replaces darkness, unless one’s bulb is burnt out; our path is to make sure the internal light is always noticed regardless of the surrounding darkness. As your internal light remains lit, more people will see it and be drawn to you. When this occurs it will draw others to you as the internal light expands, and maybe one day there won’t be any darkness to replace because everyone will see their internal light…

Misinformed Perceptions

As long as there’s misinformation in place, this will be the operating energy of your life. This misinformed operating energy arises as perceptions and it doesn’t allow you to go beyond it…

At times how things appear isn’t actually how they are. If you truly want to see what’s going on, going beyond your misinformed perception will have to happen. If two people are looking at the same thing there are usually two different views of what’s seen; truth is what’s beyond the misinformed perception of what’s seen. There’s two sides to everything and then there’s the truth. To stop attaching to misinformed perceptions, you’ll need to stop labeling what is seen. Stopping the labeling process allows the mind to slow to a point where the misinformation is seen and a different view opens up. It’s imperative for this to happen if the misinformed perception that’s been formed over the years is to lessen its grip.

Misinformed perception is so misunderstood and how this is known is because of the behavior that’s in place. I look to myself to know this and in the process I can see it in others. This isn’t a judgement, it’s a fact. Know your own mind and you will know the mind of others; this is because we are all of the same energy. Creation is the same for everything regardless of the misinformed perceptions. When misinformation is seen for what it is, its energy begins to transform in a direction that allows truth. As long as there’s unawareness of this, the energy of misinformed perceptions remains as the operating energy of your life. This operating energy arises as what’s seen and takes on many forms, but the bottom line is it’s misinformed perceptions that don’t allow you to go beyond it…

Consciously Aware

Everyone begins life in this form with love in their heart, but because of the Conditioned Mind it gets pushed so far down that a story has to be made up instead of being consciously aware of it…

Why the Conditioned Mind is such a nemesis to one’s well being is because most conditioning is based in selfishness; this affects every aspect of life. Multiple this by billions of conditioned people and it’s no wonder the world is as it is. Granted this is one person’s experience (mine) but this is what has been revealed to me as being the block to me being consciously aware of love. Without this conscious love for myself there isn’t room to love others. This didn’t make love non existent in my life, but it did make me unaware of it.

To me, everyone has love in their heart, but it gets pushed so far down that one has to make up a story of love instead of being in touch with it consciously. When this happens, love becomes a doing when it’s something that just is. Love isn’t something that can be manufactured, it either is or it isn’t. Love doesn’t pick and choose, it can’t, love just loves; unconditionally. The thing with love is most think it’s a wishy washy state of mind, but it’s not really anything, it’s just love. An applied label doesn’t enhance it, only the awareness of it allows its conscious state to be. Love affects everything as does the lack of it. When there’s awareness of this, the heart opens and loves unconditionally because that’s how being consciously aware rolls…

Confused Mind

Understanding the nature of a confused mind is one of the attributes of waking up, but it’s not the confusion of the world that one wakes up from, it’s the confusion of your own mind…

What is a confused mind that runs your life? The confused mind manifests because there’s attachment to your thoughts. The first thought that arises about something doesn’t matter, it’s the attachment to the second thought that forms the confused mind. To understand the confused mind one must be aware of their attachments and desires, and the way your mind works. Without this awareness the puppet on string pattern prevails. Certain practices turns one inward to see this. If what you’re doing doesn’t turn you inward, you’ll remain trapped to your confused state of mind. This is why nothing from the outside truly changes a person because anything from the outside is part of the confused mind. A confused mind can’t fix itself and as long as it’s reaching for something on the outside, it remains trying to fix itself and thus it remains confused. Until this truth is seen, things have to stay as they are because nothing is being done to change it.

We can only go beyond the confusion if there’s awareness of it. What this means is one has to develop mindfulness of what they are doing as they are doing it so there‘s awareness of what’s being done. If you know what you’re doing as you’re doing it, it leaves little room for confusion to arise. Mindfulness is probably the single most discipline to develop as it anchors you in the moment of what is being done. A confused mind only occurs when one lives in the story of a past or future. These confused mind made constructs keeps the confusion alive. The present moment can be seen without making it a story even though it passes as quickly as it arises, but the past and future can never truly be seen without a story; because of this lack of discipline to be present, most people live a confused mind existence…

Unconscious Energy Pull

There’s so much unconscious energy in our society that it’s almost impossible to break free. Why it’s so difficult to break a habit is because the habitual thing is always focused on and not the unconscious energy pull…

The unconscious energy pulls you along as if you were a puppet on a string, that is unless there’s some awareness this is happening. To me, the only thing that allows this awareness to happen is to see your thoughts slowing down enough to where there’s a millisecond of space between them; if space is created the pull of the unconscious energy lessens. The only thing I’ve found that allows this space is discipline developed by sitting. It’s very important to understand this because people sit for hours with other intentions and the moment they’re finished their unconscious energy takes over again. An understanding of what is being done is beneficial because it allows for a clear direction which keeps the mind open to learn. If everything stays in the head as intellect it’s difficult to break free from the energy unconsciousness emits. Also the larger the collective group of unconscious energy there is the harder it is to pull away.

One example of this is from the Bible, the masses grew as the Pharisees publicly persecuted Jesus as more people were pulled into the unconscious energy to have him crucified. If you research the conquerors of the past, you’ll see just how the unconscious energy pull works. As their reigns became deeper, they expanded their empires as the unconscious energy pull became deeper. The unconscious energy pull also includes those trying to help addicts because the addiction is to “I” and the focus is always on the unconscious substances that addicts and society use. Until “I” is addressed very few people will ever truly break free from the unconscious energy pull because space won’t be allowed between your thoughts as the unconscious energy of “I” remains in control…

Conditioned Desiring

Life is not made to be perfect where it has to be the way you think it should be. Whatever arises has to be accepted exactly as it is without the conditioning of desiring things different…

Being human means you will have desires and unless this is accepted exactly as it is without needing things to be a certain way, life will seem to always have some kind of struggle associated with it. One of the common traits I notice when I talk to people about the Conditioned Mind is not truly accepting themselves exactly as they are, with a self imposed label of imperfect being applied. There are so many conditioned desires engrained in each of us and if they’re not accepted as they arise, existence will be a struggle; desiring things to be different.

Accept yourself in each moment, desires and all and just watch as they arise. This isn’t a right or wrong thing, it’s just part of being conditioned which has to be accepted if there’s to be peace in your life. Desires usually manifest as individual energy, but at certain times it’s both individual and collective energy. If this isn’t accepted to some degree, it’s because your conditioned desires are in control and it needs things to be different. Anything that happens has to be accepted as it is if there’s to be any semblance of peace. This is difficult because of the things that occur and because as humans we attach labels to what arises as being unpleasant. This makes you desire whatever arises to be different, and as long as your energy doesn’t accept this as it is, peace will be fleeting at best; this is regardless of what happens on any given day…

Favored Conditioning

You can only do what the Conditioned Mind favors. Until you wake up and notice what it is your mind favors, it will remain in place and the mind favored nonsense will direct your existence…

Everything reached for is a coping mechanism your own mind has favored for you to use. And although favoring different things will produce different outcomes, the core of all of this favored nonsense is the same; it arises from your conditioned mind. This is what causes one to constantly seek what isn’t real. The Conditioned Mind makes you believe it’s real, and the ensuing behavior manifest to fill this favored nonsense. The Conditioned Mind says, Hey you need to reach for something, what’s reached for depends on what the conditioning in place favors; sit and ponder this for a while.

Until there’s awareness of what the Conditioned Mind favors, suffering will remain because you will always have a need to favor something to fulfill an arisen mind agitation. There’s nothing inherently wrong with this, but when it’s the driving force of existence, it will keep the mind in a constant state of favored agitations; this cannot be seen by a mind that’s favoring this state. Only with a quiet mind state will there be awareness of this. The reason why anything is reached for is because there’s a favoring by the mind for the present moment to be different; this is the lie of the Conditioned Mind. You can only do what the Conditioned Mind favors and unless you notice this, your conditioning will remain in place and the favored mind nonsense will be the driving force of your existence…

Unknown Attachments

When the present moment isn’t needed to be a certain way, that’s when you can truly be in harmony with life. If there’s unknown attachments that need the moment different, suffering follows…

When there’s a discussion about what it means to be free, one needs to be aware of the unknown attachments that are held onto by the mind. There’s little awareness of these so even though a person may have many attachments which their own mind creates, the same mind will tell you there are none. If the mind tells you there are no attachments who can say there are? But regardless if there’s awareness of them, ignorance isn’t bliss. Attachment is the number one deterrent to freedom, and freedom can only be had if it’s known which ones are blindly attached to.

This isn’t to condone if someone has unknowing attachments that harm others, but if this isn’t known there’s no way the person can be any different; one is as free as the awareness to what their known attachments are. It’s the unknown attachments that cause one to behave in ways that aren’t conducive to love; attachments block innate goodness from arising. Attach to nothing and nothing will be blocked. This is when true harmony with existence will be; this is where nothing is needed, wanted or desired. It’s where life just is with an awareness that nothing added or attached to will make it any different. When life’s moments aren’t needed to be a certain way, this is the point that one will truly be in harmony with life because the unknown attachments fall away…

Spiritual Perspective

Formed concepts keep you in a conditioned prison. This blocks out seeing in the stillness of non-judgement that there’s no lock on your prison cell, there’s only the spiritual perspective that non-judgement reveals…

A spiritual perspective can only be seen when it’s viewed from non-judgement; judgements do nothing to enhance life. Life happens without judgements, actually judgements limit the awareness of your spiritual perspective because it makes life conceptual; in your formed concepts are your limits. This is how it is with most things that exist in life, they don’t need to be judged. In the case of life itself, it gets all it needs from the Universe. It doesn’t think about how it can enhance its own spiritual perspective, this is a natural process. It’s like this with everything, but it’s only seen once conceptual living begins to slow. Judgements don’t enhance anything, there’s usefulness in categorizing things, but this doesn’t enhance whatever’s being judged.

This is why it’s said “In stillness all truth is revealed” because when the mind is free of conceptual judgements there’s an understanding of things that are very difficult to explain with words. It’s the reason my response to people is “It is seen as it is seen” because no matter how much one tries to convince someone to see what they see, it’s almost impossible; almost. Because of the conditioning in place people have a hard time with someone possibly knowing more than them, so they close down and miss the spiritual perspective of what’s really happening. As with all of life you will know truth when it‘s seen there’s existence without needing to judge. Our formed concepts keep us in a conditioned prison cell. This blocks out seeing that in the stillness of non-judgement there’s no lock on the cell, there’s only the spiritual perspective that non-judgement reveals…

Love Aligned Aspirations

When aspirations are aligned with love, this opens the heart to loving all beings. Not because it’s wanted, but because this is the way love rolls when aspirations are aligned with love…

Having love aligned aspirations are worth more than all the books combined on what it means to be spiritual. Why this is so is because your aligned aspirations are yours and the content of any book is someone else’s. Someone else’s idea of you will never be you, no matter if their way is copied exactly. This is why many remain in the struggle because they’re trying to be someone else’s idea of who they should be. You can use books, methods, and whatnot as a tool, but the deep seated aspirations of why you do what you do will need to be reflected upon to see if the results of your efforts are aligned with love. Not the story of love, but the love that arises not from effort, but from one’s inner aspired alignment. This is where effort is meaningless if it’s not aligned with love. Only aligned aspirations with love will result in meaning.

There are as many books as there are people practicing, but everyone who reads a book and practices doesn’t necessarily wake up. This is because the aspirations aren’t of the necessary energy that allows the alignment to a loving heart. True, aspirations need to be seen if there is to be harmony with all beings. This doesn’t mean a person won’t harm you or animals and insects won’t bite you, but it’s less likely you will put yourself in that type of situations with having the aspirations of a loving heart. In the space of stillness one learns to see their true aspirations and in the process have them aligned with love. When this occurs one will love all beings, not because it’s wanted, but because this is the way love rolls when one’s aspirations are aligned with love…

Created Tug-of-War

Life is a happening not a doing. If it’s made into something to do, there will always be the agitation of an inner tug-of-war. In the space of not doing there’s peace because the inner tug-of-war is nonexistent…

It may seem as though life creates a tug-of-war so lessons are learned, but the tug-of-war is inner. Life doesn’t create a tug-of-war, that’s not its nature, life is just life. Things happen because of certain laws and conditions producing certain result. This is life just being life, it’s never personal. There’s inner space in every person that you can anchor in when it seems like life creates a tug-of-war, but this isn’t life, its just the agitated story the Conditioned Mind creates; a story of an inner tug-of-war.

When you can stay anchored you‘ll stop creating your own tug-of-war. This is regardless of what happens in life, unless you make it about life doing something to you. Life does nothing to no one. It’s each individual alone from the way they‘re conditioned that makes life seem as though there’s an inner tug-of-war. This occurs because without an anchor everything that happens in life is made into a burden of something to do. But understand, whatever goes on between your ears about what you think you have to do, that is an inner tug-of-war; it’s something you create from within yourself. Don’t blame life for the inability of not staying anchored and being left unprotected. Find your anchor space so you are planted and stay there as much as possible. The more you stay anchored the fewer stories there will be in your life, and the less it will seem like there’s an inner tug-of-war…

Disguised Lack

The Conditioned Mind creates a lie disguised as lack; this lie is disguised as a lack of love. This lack will constantly need to be fed even though it doesn’t truly exist…

For many years I had a disguised lack in me that was created from what I thought was a lack of love. That’s why I constantly reached for things to fill it; I have since come to understand this. This disguised lack isn’t a true lack at all, it’s emptiness; this emptiness is the essence of love. It’s where life truly happens when one is busy making other plans. By not understanding this, I spent most of my life trying to fill a disguised lack with whatever I could get my hands on. This is an endless list as to what can be used, so each individual has to investigate for themselves what that is. It’s ironic though because now much of my life is spent in the space that for so long was disguised as a lack; the truth of this has been revealed to me.

This disguised lack is the reason why someone reaches for anything and wants life to be different. If this was understood for what it truly was, humanity would be much different because contentment would be the way of the world. The lack is a disguised lie of the Conditioned Mind and it keeps one constantly needing the present moment to be different so it keeps you reaching to fill it. This will need to be understood if the lack induced reaching is to ever end. When it is understood, the disguised lack transforms to love because the present moment doesn’t need to be different. When the present moment doesn’t need to be different, life reveals its true essence which doesn’t ever need to be filled with anything because the disguised lack is seen for the lie that it truly is…

An Instinctive Reality

An instinctive reality only occurs in the present, self-serving desires disrupt this from being seen. Only a mind that’s settled in the present can understand an instinctive reality…

Sometimes it’s difficult to know what the right thing to do is. I’m not talking about clearly recognizable things, sometimes it isn’t so clear as to what should be done. It’s especially difficult when it involves other people. For myself letting go allows for me to have a more instinctive reality with some of my responses to people. This is all part of the learning curve of letting go. It matters little what the intentions are if what comes out of the mouth isn’t from an instinctive reality.

This learning curve isn’t to be held to strict adherence, it’s more so used to stay open minded to the expanding instinctive reality and not get caught up in a self-serving reality. Instincts have to be at the forefront when others are involved. It’s not always easy to understand where others are coming from so it’s better not to judge and to try and deal with situations from an instinctive reality. This is much easier said than done, but by practicing quietness it gets easier to decipher what the right instinctive action is. We shouldn’t be too hard on ourselves because of the Conditioned Mind, the slow process of awakening has to be accepted if there is to be peace. On the other hand our conditioning is not to be ignored because we won’t learn from it and the same reactions will be repeated over and over again.

Although life may seem mundane at times, it’s only a self-serving reality that makes it so; life can never be mundane. Each moment is new unto itself, and when it’s lived instinctively, it’ll be realized what a gift life truly is. It’ll be understood that what your learning curve affords you is not the mundane life of living in the past or future, but the ability to live in the present and respond to life from an instinctive reality instead of reacting to it from a self-serving reality; the more this is done the less your realty will be mundane…

Marvel of Each Moment

The marvel of life is in the newness of each moment. This marvel isn’t observed by most because of the view developed by the Conditioned Mind, but this doesn’t mean the marvel of each moment isn’t there…

Our delusions come in many forms and they’re all used to reinforce the delusion of “I”. The way the mind has been conditioned makes us perceive life as if we’re on a merry-go-round; you can’t get off it until it’s realized you‘re on it. Think about it, look and see how time is used and how fast it goes by. The days of the week are used like this, along with the work week. There are so many things used that keep us on the merry-go-round ; look and see what it is that keeps you on the merry-go-round of the Conditioned Mind.

Our life becomes one task after another and we basically do the same things over and over. Our delusion is this is the way it has to be, but this isn’t so, it doesn’t have to be this way. Every moments marvel of everyday is different unto itself. You may make it the same because of the Conditioned Mind, but it’s impossible for any moment to be duplicated. Once it’s in the past it can never be repeated. 

The marvel of each moment can only be understood by a mind that is quiet enough to be aware of it. The burdened delusions are a result of conditioned thinking. To get off this merry-go-round you must be free of conditioned thinking, and to be free of conditioned thinking, the marvel of each moment must be understood. Nothing done yesterday or even one second ago has anything to do with right now unless it’s made so. Enjoy the marvel of life by living each moment unto itself. Or not and carry around the burden of past moments and stay on the merry-go-round; you can get off anytime you want, but that is up to you…

Truth Awareness

What occurs when one awakens is there’s awareness where blindness gives way to truth; this is truth awareness. With this awareness you no longer have a blind view, it’s now based in truth…

People think they change when they learn something new, but the essence of what is truly happening is there’s awareness of the truth that has always been there. It’s not really a change that occurs, it’s awareness of delusional blindness, with an understanding of truth. You cannot know truth if you don’t know your blindness and you cannot know your blindness if you don’t know have awareness of truth. The reason why it’s so difficult for this truth awareness to occur is because the mind will not settle down to see it. Your mind will tell you what you’re looking at is truth, but that’s a blinded lie…

Self investigation isn’t easy especially when it’s first started, that’s why so many are hesitant to do it. It’s much easier to live in blindness and not investigate it, but there are only benefits when a truthful and honest self appraisal are done. A step into the unfamiliar will need to be taken so you can develop awareness of your blindness. 

The mind defaults naturally to the conditioned blindness because it’s what’s been taught, but a truthful self appraisal allows for awareness of truth to rise to the surface; this is how awareness of truth becomes known. When awareness of truth is taught, what happens is the veil of blindness is removed so where you were once blind you now see. It’s not a change, it’s awareness of truth that has always been there and is now seen…