Desires Fulfilled

You will either serve desires that fulfill creation or you’ll serve desires that fulfill yourself; in the process you will reap from the one that is sown…

You will either serve desires that fulfill the human side or serve the ones that fulfill love which are of the spirit side. You can’t intentionally flip flop like an on and off switch, it’s one or the other; to fulfill love can’t be your intention only sometimes. You’ll serve the desires to fulfill creation or you’ll serve the desires to fulfill yourself, just understand you will reap from the one that is sown. When what’s sown fulfills the desire from love, the energy emitted will be from this love, and so will your daily desires. This can only occur because of being not doing. Unlike doing, when being is the base of life love will always be fulfilled. The question is, how can we bring the love of creation into the daily actions of life when there’s so much conditioning geared towards fulfilling your human side?

It’s never the thing on the outside that causes your desires, it’s always from the conditioning within. Even when this is known it still doesn’t automatically lead to fulfilling love desired actions. The dilemma is this, fulfilling human desires get in the way of our spiritual nature. There’s too much emphasis on fulfilling desires of the world, not enough practice is done to quiet the mind that allows the love of creation to be the desires fulfilled. Sit often and you just may learn to fulfill the desire to love instead of fulfilling the desire of your human side…

Created Inadequacy

There’s never an inadequacy that isn’t created so there’s never a true need to reach outside yourself for anything. Until this is seen you will continue the suffering of a created inadequacy…

Every time someone reaches for something designed for a specific issue, it’s because they believe there’s inadequacy in them. Same when a person goes to see a therapist, or they reach for another self help book, program, or if any other type of outside help is sought; this is because of the applied label of inadequacy. When this is done all you’re doing is reinforcing the attachment to that label and hence you’re keeping yourself attached that there’s inadequacy; there’s inadequacy only because you have labeled it. Read this very carefully because why this label is being applied will be the difference in being complete or remaining entrapped to inadequacy. Some of the things mentioned above do have value if they’re used at certain times in the one’s life. If they’re being held onto as an end to a means, they lose their value as the needing morphs into inadequacy and hence suffering.

Not many will see exactly what I’m talking about here, but I’m writing it because it’s what I experienced after many years of trying to fill inadequacies with things from the outside. I have found the very things that I was using to fill what I thought were inadequacies is what kept me reaching; regardless of what was being used. Why I thought there was inadequacy is what I needed to find out because it didn’t truly exist; since it didn’t truly exist why was it there. To me, if something from the outside is needed to live life, something isn’t right. If I can’t just be with myself without thinking there’s inadequacy, I have to ask myself why this is so. There‘s never inadequacy that isn’t created so there’s never a true need to reach outside yourself for anything. Until this is seen you will continue to think there’s inadequacy and thus create your own suffering…

Conditioning Reversed

Nothing that happens in life affects a person unless their own mind allows it. The insanity of the Conditioned Mind is its destructive solutions are from within which means one creates their own destruction…

For me, when all is said and done, regardless of what it’s called, I have found a way to minimize the conditioning that created my own destruction. It’s my own mind that tells me this conditioning is needed to cope with life; a life that was controlled by a destructive mindset. My own mind created all the destruction that went on by choosing behaviors I thought I wanted to do, but my choices always caused issues. I developed a mind that told me to do things that were destructive to my own well being. From relationships, to drugs, alcohol, gambling, and a slew of other things, nothing was ever chosen that was beneficial to my well being. I always seemed to do things that caused more harm than good. Why this mind set developed I’m not sure, but I do know this, it can only be described as created insanity.

Seventeen years ago although it wasn’t a white light experience, an inner shift occurred that revealed a way to reverse the destructive conditioning. Regardless of what it’s called or what attached label is put on it, when I have issues with something, it’s my own destructive mindset that creates it. When there’s awareness of this and there isn’t attachment to this, there aren’t created issues. I have found without issues I’m at peace, so the bottom line for me is to not create issues. All I ever wanted in my life was peace, but I didn’t know it was my own mind that created all the destruction…

Controlled Mind

Understanding the nature of a controlled mind is one of the attributes of waking up, but it’s not being controlled by the world that wakes one up, it’s the awareness of being controlled by your own mind…

What is a controlled mind that runs your life? The controlled mind manifests because there’s attachment to your thoughts. The thought that arises about something is inconsequential, it’s the attachment to the thought that forms the controlled mind. To understand the controlled mind one must be aware of its attachments, desires, confusions, and the way your mind works. Without this awareness the puppet on string pattern prevails. Certain practices turns one inward to see this. If what you’re doing doesn’t turn you inward, you’ll remain trapped to your controlled state of mind. This is why nothing from the outside truly changes a person because anything from the outside is part of the controlled mind. A controlled mind can’t fix itself and as long as it’s reaching for something on the outside, it remains trying to fix itself and thus it remains controlled. Until this truth is seen, things will stay as they are because nothing is being done to make it different.

We can only go beyond the contolled view if there’s awareness of it. What this means is one has to develop mindfulness of what they are doing as they are doing it so there‘s awareness of what’s being done. If you know what you’re doing as you’re doing it, it leaves little room for the controlled mind to arise. Mindfulness is probably the single most discipline to develop as it anchors you in the moment of what is being done. A controlled mind only occurs when one lives in the story of a past or future. These controlled mind made constructs keeps the control active. The present moment can be seen without making it a story even though it passes as quickly as it arises, but the past and future can never truly be seen without a story. Because of this lack of discipline to be present, most people live a controlled mind existence…

Naively Controlled

When you’re naively led around by the Conditioned Mind you behave in ways that aren’t beneficial. Not because it’s how you want to be, it’s because it’s naively how you have to be…

It was a lack of understanding of my conditioning that led me to remain naively controlled by it. What I was naively led by was a mind that was conditioned to self serve. The issue with this type of conditioning is it causes your own destruction because the destructiveness is naively disguised as something needed; this needing is pursued by many to their death. It was naively pursued by me in this way and I was at its mercy. It said to use drugs, alcohol, gambling, lying, cheating, stealing and so on. This is how the naively of the Conditioned Mind is developed except for some who are fortunate enough to see this at a young age.

The way I was conditioned wasn’t the fault of anyone, it was indirectly implemented by the inner and outer influences of my life which naively molded me to behave in the ways my conditioning developed and naively controlled me. You cannot behave in any other way except in the way you have been naively conditioned. Change the conditioning and change your entire existence or not and remain the same. The value of knowing my own mind is in the understanding there was no where to turn but inward. What is learned when the Conditioned Mind is understood is you no longer are naively led by it. Its control slowly dissipates as you develop discipline; the mind actually slows down. Once this slowing occurs, the possibilities are endless because there is no longer distractions that keep you naively attached to the conditioning. With this solid understanding of what you’re truly up against, you’re able to develop the discipline so your naive conditioning falls away…

Inward Intuitiveness

If you seek what you think is needed to wake up, you’ll probably remain sleep walking through life. An awakening is from the Universe, but this will not be known if you’re listening to head noise instead of your inward intuitiveness…

We are all a product of the Universe, we are not products of ourselves. We didn’t call for our creation nor do we call for the time when it ends. Our existence is a product of the Universe and the energy transformed to awaken is from the Universe. This is why we can’t really do anything to transform ourselves. We can only do the necessary practice that allows the heart to open so the Universe can do its thing. This is not our doing, this is a calling from the Universe; we practice because we’re listening to our inward intuitiveness. The reason some practice and some don’t is because the noise in the head doesn’t allow listening to inward intuitiveness. Even though it seems an awakening is from the outside, it can only be heard from inward intuitiveness.

Through our Conditioned Mind we become trapped in a self-centered direction. This may also be from the Universe, but it doesn’t produce love. Energy always is, it’s just a matter of listening so you can go where you’re directed. We seek because the Universe nudges us, but we’ll only hear when the veil of a Conditioned Mind is removed and our energy is intuitively guided by the heart. Spirituality is not magical for a select few who think they‘re special, it’s available to anyone who listens to inward intuitiveness. The Universe is always calling, but we don’t always listen. If you think you’re listening, question if you’re hearing a true message or if you’re making up your own message to fulfill some self-centered desire. It takes much quietness to intuitively hear the Universe’s call. The alternative is to listen and follow a made up call which is scary. And why it’s scary is because people are trapped in fulfilling self-centered desires that prevent listening to their inward intuitiveness…

Quietness Tools

Quietness is what happens when the tools that allow quietness are used. Once the tools of noise are changed, quietness naturally arises because it’s what’s there…

If you think you have tools that need to be changed, there are tools that have been revealed to me to assist in doing this. I know I don’t have the only tools and by the way they actually aren’t mine, I borrowed them from people who came before me; I share them in my articles with the compassion from my heart. So if you do have tools that aren’t beneficial know this, they can be changed. This is my aspiration, nothing more. It’s not something that I strive to do, because striving to be or do something leads to suffering. 

Quietness is what my tools allowed once they were changed; noise is suffering. I sit a lot, this sharpened my tools more and more, but this also caused heartache when it was observed that people suffer needlessly. What I know is this; I can only change myself, but I can share the tools I use that allow me to change. Some of the tools I use are sitting, sensation of touch, guided meditations, bowl mediations, watching the breath, walking, etc, basically I use whatever allows present moment awareness. Whether you want to use any of these is up to you, but if you don’t use mine find your own. Please make sure the tools that you use makes your behavior a benefit to all beings. And keep sharpening your tools so you can keep on expanding and bring more love into a world that can definitely use it…